LYRA : Fresh Face.

Hair, nothing sticking out - Check.
Shirt, straight - Check.
Skirt, straight - Check.
Face, nothing weird on it - Check.
Okai Lyra, now take a deep breath and just walk in.
You'll look fine - hopefully.

With her books in hand and all the guts
her body could muster, Lyra stopped talking to herself
and decided to enter lecture theatre.

She laid her weight against the handle
and pushed the heavy door open.

Fumbling in,
Her eyes adjusted to the bright lights,
Her ears took in the new found volume of chatter
and Her nose, the smell of new clothes.
Unconsciously, her vision focused to scan the clothes
of her classmates-to-be, then flickered back to her own
for confirmation.
And all these, surprisingly, happened in a matter of seconds.

"okai, at least I look normal." she muttered under the noise,
Then realising she's been holding her breath all these while.

"Breeathe. Now all you have to do is stay calm and find a seat" , continuing her attempt
to organise her actions.

Taking a place located at the furthest, most desolated corner,
Lyra took comfort in the fact that she could see the mass but
they couldn't see her.

She then began unpacking her stationary,
but not before taking a glance at the entire mass to uncover any weird stares.
Thankfully, there weren't any.

However, quicker than she would like, all her stationary were
set out neatly in a minute.

For a brief awkward moment she bit her lips,
her mind in turbulence, wondering what to do next.

Arriving at an idea, she dived into her bagpack to
pull out a book. Then plunged her mind
immediately into it, to mask her nerves.

Unfortunately, under all the noise and jitter
her concentration was fraying.
For minutes she remained on the same page,
reading the same word thrice over.
Not giving up, she resorted to a mini battle in her mind
to regain her concentration.
That, nevertheless, failed.

Once again Lyra fret to find something else to do.

This time however a clear voice from beside her
penetrated her thoughts.
Involunteerily, she drew in a short sharp breath
and looked to her right,snapping out of her thoughts.

There she saw a white smile beaming at her.
" Is anyone sitting there?", the lad pointed to the chair beside her.

Stunned for a moment, she didn't reply.
Then suddenly comprehending his question, Lyra floundered to answer it.
" Yes - I mean no, no, no one's sitting here. You may have it.",
she said then proceeding to return a grin.

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oh no oh no oh no, school's starting.
is it wrong to feel afraid/nervous/uneasy/dead?
The above is only the best case scenario.

help.

Lost & Terrified.

Kara DioGuardi
is one awesome singer.

Well, I knew she could sing pretty well,
But not this well.
Her voice blows me away man.

Here's the link to Terrified,
haha the song title is absolutely not true to the song itself.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6a1lfnjqC4I
(and I can't get this one out of my head.)

And here's the cover she did for Lost,
haha well this one's true to the song title.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gBKszP4ZGJw

=)
credits to shawn.

Tell me.

What am I suppose to do when,
I know what's wrong but
I can't right what's wrong?

What am I suppose to do if
they don't see where they're wrong and
won't listen to where they go wrong?

What am I suppose to do
If they're so caught up in their own misery?

What am I suppose to do when,
"you're too young to understand, Naomi" ?

What am I suppose to think when
I look them in the face
and realise they own me?

What am I suppose to say when
the truth really does hurt.?

What am I to do when
words fail.



Lord, now would be good.

left with love. (a post long overdue)

SK II !
This ENTIIIIIRE post is dedicated to you guys, coated with
my mushy and cliche appreciation for ya'll. =D
(though some of ya'll probably won't read it.)

I'm sorry this post is long overdue but
being bck at SK2 today reminded me that I still had this post tht i haven't published.
Brace yourself, It's a long one.

In alphabetical order,

BEN TAN
Hey dude, Haven't known you for a long time,
so i haven't got much to say.
But, I know though, that I'm glad you came to be part of SK2.
Have fun there and i pray you'll grow closer to God.

BRYAN
=) haha you never fail to make me smile. I mean your just so
cheery most of the time, And i think your smile's just really contagious.
Also in cell I find that you're really open and you're
willing to share with us even the tiniest problems that you face,
and well, thts awesome.

DANIEL
Hey there rocker, firstly I would like to say that you've a great taste
for music=) haha now when I find that I need fresh music,
you usually pop into my mind.
And no doubt you are a really fun guy to be around.
And you might not notice but you're pretty gentlemanly,
and I'd like to thank you for being that way. Oh and I think i recall reading
on your blog?-once before that you feel you aren't a good friend?or some sort.
haha well, oh contrary, I think you truly will make a good friend =)
All the very best for O's dude, haha no pressure.
I'll be glad to assist if you need any =)
Oh and be sure you recognise a bus from a motorcycle BEFORE
you get your driver's license haha.

DARREN
Hey Man, I haven't known you for a long time but I think you should know
that it's great how you make an effort to attend service regularly. And i'm
pretty sure you've grown alil these whiles. And if you keep pressin in I'm sure
God won't fail you, dealing with school and all would probably be easier.=)
I truly pray that you'll be an awesome testimony to your friends for God.
Cya around soon.

DEBORAH LEE
Crazy Woman~! You really have no idea What a joy you are =D
Besides what I said in the many cards I wrote to you on
the many occasions, haha, I think that you're so awesome
in the way that you rarely judge people. And I really look up to for that.=) Really.
haha I guess thts probably why you make friends so easily.
I just wana thank you for being so caring and SINCERE and such a joy. =)
P.S if you ever wana borrow my jeans too.. ;P

DEBRA LIM
Hey Babe! I'd like to thank you for always being such a great friend at cell.
Gosh, I'm just extremely glad I was able to see you grow so much spiritually and physically.
HAHA I still remember that when you first entered the cell your answer
to every question would be "I Dunno".
But now it's not anymore!
And I think that in school you really face alot of temptations, but all these while
you haven't really given in to them. That's really awesome.
Heh and you're really doin a great job at being a prayer IC,
you're usually very thoughtful=) and I truly appreciate it =)

ENREKA
Hey love, I haven't seen you in so long! I truly miss you.
I think you should know that your really sweet and gentle=)
haha and your laughter is really One of a kind, it's totally silent~!
I don't really know the reason why you can't come but I pray that you won't
lose your faith in God. And in anything lean on his strength=)
He'll never let you down, I'm sure. Can't wait to cya around soon!

JOSHUA SHO
Joshie Woshie~! haha. I really wanna thank you for being such a great friend,
even during times where I get alil unreasonable. Thank you for always bothering to care
and for not flaring up when I get unreasonable=) I'm truly sry for times where I might have
offended you with my words-looking back I know I definitely did.
Oh and just to let you know you were the one who actually got
me started on doing quiet time regularly. =) And you've no Idea how grateful I am
for that, I still roughly recall that conversation I had with you after so long=)
Thank you. I found a true friend in you=)
FEEEEEEEEEEEEEED UP =P
(sry I couldn't resist.haha)

LAY MIAN
Hey Love, I find you're really sweet and gentle..and it's a very likable character
you posses=) I truly enjoyed the times I spent with you in YOU camp,
It's the most memorable so far, and I really really wana see you again soon.
Gosh you haven't been in cell for the longest time.I've been bck to visit twice already
and I haven't seen you there!
Again I do not know the reason, but I also pray you will not lose your faith in God.
He'll see you through it all. He has for me=) Cya around soon.

MING WEI
Hey dude, I thought you should know that you're really fun to be around.
And your smile's extremely contagious. No kid. And the things you do sometimes
are reeeeally funny, and the best part is you're seldom aware of it.haha!
Also I find it's really awesome that you very very rarely get angry, and I think
that's a very valued character you posses, and just so you know I look up to you
for that. It's great and that way I can tell you truly love God. =)

RACHEL
I hope I spelled it right. Don't think you notice but, I think you're really funny in your own little subtle way.haha! Well I haven't known you for very long but I'm glad I did anyway. There's this something about you that makes you seem very intelligent, that your silently absorbing information.haha.
And I like it that you're very down-to-earth =) Hope to see you around soon. I wana know you better =)

SAMUEL DO
Hey dude, well I dont know you very well either, But I can see you're serious about your
relationship with God, and well, that's awesome. Also I'd like to comment you on your worship.
haha I don't know why but I always seem to notice your worship during cell, and I think that your worship really comes from your heart and I look up to that.=)

SAMUEL YUAN
Sam you've really, truly impacted my life alot, and I can't thank you enough for it.
Your an amazing cell leader. And it's so great that you care for each and everyone of us
so much. Thank you for leading SK2 with so much passion you really brought joy
to the cell, in my opinion. And thank you for being a true role model for me-in so so many ways, um I don't know but I find it very easy to relate to you, and when times got rough, I find myself lookin to you as a model. haha I told myself that if God could keep you through the tough times you had and mould you to be the great person you are now, he will be able to do the same for me. And you might not know it but this played a huge part in me hanging on to God =)
Also thank you for bringing worship in SK2 to a higher level, I really encountered God then.Oh and also for making and shaping us to own our cell. The little things you say and assign us to do really allows us to own and be proud of our cell.
Thank you lastly, for being such a gentlemen and setting such a good example for the other guys in SK2. heh heh you'll truly make a good husband.=)
*hint hint, it's about time you got attached ~~*
Really, Thanks Sam. =)

WEI LUN
Hey dude, I'm sry I don't know much about you considering the sparse amount
of time I've spent with you but I truly hope that you'll find a friend in God and really get to know him.
You'll be amazed of the things he can do in your life if you earnestly seek him=)

ZACHARY TANG
Hey man~ Once again I'm extremely glad I was able to witness you grow to be such a
awesome teen of God. haha seriously it's unbelievable how much you've grown. I still
can't get over it. well Thanks Zach for being so concerned and committed to the cell, sometimes you might not show it well or show it at all, but I think it really can be felt, even through the
your treasurer duties haha. I truly think you're a good friend. And after seeing the crazy side of you I can't wait to see other sides of you.haha. Continue to keep this faith you have in God, and
share it with all your neighbours, be it annoying or not. ;)

This took really really long to write. I probably had forgotten some stuff halfway thru..haha
so take note I might be back to edit.
Love you guys. You really made a difference and impact in my heart=)

Commander, One down.

Here's on a random note,

I've come to realise,
I don't know about you,
but,
you can never win, with war movies.

If the movie's bad, it bores you to death.
If it's good, then it makes you cry.

And EITHER way, it ruins your spirit after watching it.
.__.

jeez.

Bring on the street credit.haha.

ALRIGHT~! I've finally got my SKATEBOARD.

I'm a happy and alil money-stretched smuck,
but that's okai
cos I've gotten my Skateboard~ Wooh!

And the best part is my parents didn't say anything
about how much it cost.

Howeverrr,
I've a teensy problem,
I currently don't know how to properly stop the board
W/O falling off.
._.
And I havn't found a proper place to practice yet..
hmm

suggestions?

P.S Thanks Shin for running around with me to find the board shop.
Gosh, two road idiots lookin for a place.
Oh, and promise to bring me with you when you go get your blades alright?
I owe you one =)

too much to hate?

I dislike going to the office because,
I'd rather stay at home and play my guitar.

I hate it,
beacuse I'll have to go thorough double the politics,
both there and here at home.

I loathe the fact that
this business is neccesary for our income.

I deplore it,
because it's a ground writhhing with oppotunities for us to fight.

I thoroughly resent it,
because I'm obliged by family relantion and guilt
to go to work.

And I scorn it,
because this guilt is not implored by my parents,
but myself.

And I hate that I hate it.
tsk.

Probably wouldv'e gone to JC if I'd knew =\

Poly Enrollment is an INCREDIBLE
pain in the arse.

I havn't the slightest clue what the
financial part of the package means.

And the mandatory medical check up
makes up the bulk of the incredible-pain-in-the-arse-ness.

The clinics were either all the way at Orchard/Jurong or I have to wake up early for T3 or risk gettin hopelessly lost in Bedok.

So i chose Orchard.

I didn't know a clinic existed in Ngee Ann City.__.
I took forever to find it.
(thanks Liv and Shin for running around wit me)

Oh and I've to go back tmr to collect my results.
AND another time 2 weeks later to take the urine test thing...
because my period just HAD to fall during the time when I went for the check up.

Like Ugh.
TSK.