confessions of a dysphunksional

Back for 2 weeks but gone for more.

2009-12-15T22:48:00.000-08:00

It's the holidays.
It's back.

It's nice to just sit down in my porch again and take my time to do stuff.
The rain makes it feel better.
Breeze and all.

But,
despite the unhurried posture,
there's still matters upsetting my peace.

I would tell you,
but then I'd have to kill you.

heh.
sorry, momentary ninja relapses.

www.mysterygoogle.com
you know you want to.

boo school.

2009-11-17T08:18:00.000-08:00

Took me quite abit to get here.
I had to type the entire word "Blogger.com" to get to the site. heh.
I haven't been here for so long that mozilla doesn't even remember it anymore.

You see, I've grown apart from blogging.
Besides telling you that school still sucks, I've no more confounding
information to update you guys with no more.

I don't have anymore random-short stories or poems
because my schedule doesn't permit.
(either tht or, it does, but I'm bad at organising my time - but thts besides the point)

So,
you must be wondering,
why am i still here dishing out this post then?

Well,
because this is an attempt to inject hope
into my withering vocab and surpressed burst of aesthetic.
To remind myself that I've still got this little page in
the sea of the world-wide web to do graffiti.

No sweat,
I'll still be coming back here with installments,
Perhaps sporadic but nevertheless existant installments.

Ciao.

(haha you must be thinking, "gee, what a useless post.")
(well yea, I think so too)

It's school you see.

2009-10-30T09:06:00.000-07:00

I feelabit inadequate.

(an inspiration in class)

The Botanical Gardens.

2009-09-24T08:15:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIV
(sry for the late wish)

Cupcakes & leftover Popcorn chicken = Creamy Chicken

nothing rhetoric but a little esotheric.

2009-09-15T01:29:00.000-07:00

I've always thought-
I don't know about you,
that some birthdays were more important then others.

Like your 16th birthday's more improtant cos it's the SWEET 16
your 18th birthday is more important cos you're allowed to
smoke and drink legally(not that I do)
and your 21st birthday is more important cos that's when your offically an adult...
and etc etc,
you catch my drift.

So I started out this month thinking that my 17th
is just another birthday.
Big whoop.

But I was wrong.

I came to realise on this birthday, that all birthdays are equally important.

Because when I celebrate birthdays, I celebrate it with family and friends.
And it's precisely the family and friends that make birthdays so important.

Every year as I celebrate my birthday, it serves as a reminder of
how blessed I am to have the people around me.
I am reminded that the years spent roaming this rock is not for nothing.

Even if it isn't a bigscale celebration, those birthdays are still important
simply because I never fail to celebrate it with people I hold close.
Once again, cliche, but I mean it.

Thk you guys.
You know who you are.

=)

Out in my porch.

2009-09-05T08:10:00.000-07:00

a pallet of blue
a faint tangy smell of grass
a light humidity - as if the grass itself were perspiring
a soft stream of wind - only enough to comb through your hair and hit you like spring water

all these are the essence of a free day.

=)

Deserved break.

2009-08-28T03:33:00.000-07:00

Exams are over.

And I'm free to do whatever I want.

=D

I have a friend.

2009-08-22T10:35:00.000-07:00

I have a friend.
He isn't the fullest of men,
He has intuitions like that of a mother hen.
and that's something I still can't comprehend.

Comprehend I can't,
but it's importance I can fend.
He always knew when or what text should be sent,
to evoke a smile in the end.

End of the day, I have this friend.
He says he doesn't get enough compliments.
So here I am in my defense
to prove how much I meant
when I said you're a great friend.

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alright, it's 2:40am
Goodnight, sleep tight~
...

=l

2009-08-17T08:35:00.000-07:00

Now, how would I know what's going on unless you tell me.
I am trying to understand.
Tsk.

I kinda miss you pal.
Can't you tell?

So short yet so long.

2009-08-08T22:28:00.000-07:00

* inhales *

I'm Tired
=/

What's Next?

* exhales *

Senescence in Retrograde.

2009-08-01T05:54:00.000-07:00

Simple things really. simple things. Two numbers and a movie was
all it took to make my day.

8 & 9. funny numbers really. Never thought it would mean so much to me.
As I was sitting 89 home today, it brought back good memories.
My heart was aching man, no kid.
I wana go back to secondary school so bad.
sigh.

+

Freaky Friday.
A chick flick.
But once again funny how much influence it had in
my life.
Still remember clearly, p6 when I first watched it.

It blew me away.
The guitar.
Anna's spunk.
The mom's job.
The mom.
The corny morals in the movie
They blew me away.

The guitar riffs weren't even brilliant but smt
just hit me I guess - made me wana play the guitar.

And I didn't even know much about the mom's job but smt
just hit me again I guess - and today I'm still chasing the dream of
being a psychiatrist.
(okai psychologist for now)

=

Which equates to the best thing about today.

I met Mandy today, my girlfriend from secondary school.
Which! I haven't met in ages.
We sat 89 home tgt and coincidently we saw tht they were airing Freaky Friday tonight.
And so happens OUR SONG is in the soundtrack of Freaky Friday.
Ultimate by Lindsay Lohan.

It just warms the heart ya know.
well yea...

okai i'm sry this entire post is so unrhythmically written,
but I really don't care at this point.
I'm tired,
but I just wana let you know I'm a happy smuck today.
=)

Ciao.

School sucks, take drugs - and then you die.

2009-07-16T00:58:00.000-07:00

The above is my current slogan for school.
I've already pictured a banner of it hanging at the school's main entrance.
\m/

I'm sorry, just lemme be a typical poly student for awhile alright?
Post-LOA reeks.
The LOA left us with an incredible amount of make-up lessons.
Oh joy.

This week we had 9hours of Principles of Statistics.
9 boring hours of Tze Min droning.
okai, drawling & droning._.
Like seriously, does she have to talk so slowly?
You could melt hearing her speak.

But the worst thing so far this week is,
I haven't got a free friday tmr.
poppin' cheesepies.
=(

*jumps out the window*

alright, I'm still here.

but I'm done complainning.

I think I'm gona walk out the door instead.
Ciao.

One more reason to be a dad.

2009-07-02T00:12:00.000-07:00

Another late post.
Okai, very late post.
Anw,
Happy Belated Father's Day.

Just wana thank you
for letting me take ballet lessons Dad.

Ballet sucked,
But

I love you.
Cos it's the rides home from ballet that I treasure.
No matter how tired,
thankfully you were there to bring me home with pleasure.
When we had to travel from Marine Parade all the way to Pasir Ris,
I get to spend quality time with you

And that's a joy I'll never trade

Despite the weariness,
You make me laugh myself to bits.

Now that there's no more ballet,
I finally get to spend dinner time with you and the family,
I love you.

And I'm glad that I can make you laugh now.

(Read the sentences in red from bottom up, and I'm sure it's how my dad feels about me too.)
=)

On everyone's lips.

2009-06-26T06:03:00.000-07:00

To the King of Pop,

You are not alone
Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
You are not alone

All alone
Why, oh

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
So forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Then something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
And you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone

P.S. I wanted to go to at least one of his concerts. =/

My apologies.

2009-06-22T22:57:00.000-07:00

Sry I know I haven't been here for quite awhile.
Yes, my excuse is homework too.

It really is time consuming.
School Reeks.

I've got a confession to make though,
I use to wish they would close school down cos of the rising
number of H1N1 cases.
(indirectly, wishing for more people to contract H1N1)

Probably, cos I didn't think it would hit that close to home.

I was wrong undoubtedly.
Cos it's closer to home then I expected.

I'm going for a check up later..
Hopefully, nothing's worng and I didn't bring it to my immediate family.
Which me luck.

Ciao.

lucky to have stayed where we have stayed.

2009-06-12T09:18:00.000-07:00

haha well it's more of lucky for them to stay where they've stayed.
A little less lucky for me ,
cos it was my house that the guys converted into a
lan shop/hotel/cinema/recording studio.

food.
wires.
movies.
laptops.
blankets.

Notice the "S" in them.
Imagine the mess.
all over the space of my living room.

But it's cool.

I couldn't ask for better company.
It's not so much of what we did,
but simply the existance.

It's probably what friendships are build upon.

Thanks dudes.
My sincerity from the mere memory.

Holidays.

2009-06-08T00:08:00.000-07:00

I'm having my Holidays.
Or so they say.
But you probably know that already,
So I'm not gona write about it.

I've just been thinking again.
What after this?
You know that feeling of uncertainty you have when
you're taking your O levels, like Poly or JC will determine your
path of life in the future and what not.
Yea that feeling.

It's Back.

3 years will go in a flash, I'm told.
What's after Poly?

Studying here is hardly appealing. =S
Studying overseas, would mean that I'll have to start
living life all over again.=/
That too is hardly appealing.

Dammit.

=/ okai, I'm sorry this post was so pointless.
It doesn't even have a conclusion.
well oh well.

so I asked myself...

2009-06-04T00:29:00.000-07:00

what do you make of...
when you smell a scent that makes you swell,
see a colour that makes you flutter,
engage in a sport that flags more than thought,
sense a vibe that makes you wana hold on tight.

I tell myself, it must be it.

But then again,
what happens if I...

don't smell the scent that makes me swell,
see the colour but no longer flutter,
leave the sport because it flags more than a thought,
lose the vibe because it wasn't meant to be tight.

Perhaps it's all too soon to tell. =/

(you probably won't understand this, haha btr tht you don't maybe,
but well I had to let it out somewhere~)

?

2009-06-01T03:43:00.000-07:00

FPsych paper's over.
._.
it was much easier than I thought it would be.
tsk, Made me waste my emotions(generated by the limbic system, located in your forebrain)
on worrying about it.

Anw, since I feel much less tense now,
I've an urge to write a buncha words pulled out of my head that rhyme haha.

gargle bubble
red bed
bag tag
unique antique
breed weed
think pink
gold and bold
impair a pear
incessant obsession
holy moly
great grape
pamper temper
pieces of thesis
tapestry mystery
pie fly
peeling feeling

p.s I don't know, not again, but it's bubblin.

________

2009-05-19T22:56:00.000-07:00

Scrap what I said in the post before this.
I don't know what you think but poly, IS stressful.
I'm deprived.
and it's only the 5th week into Poly.
It sucks.
I whine.

I would like to write a nice lil poem now but
my mind's empty. Sucked dry and shrivelled up
from all the theory processing.

Guys will never know.

2009-05-12T08:10:00.000-07:00

A belated tribute to my mom.

" My mom, she's very loud.
My mom, she never listens.
My mom, she's demanding.

but my Mom,
She gave birth to me.

When I was born.

I was very loud.
I too never listened.
I was always demanding.

Simply because of that, I love my Mom.
And she must love me too. "
-Naomi Liew

Proverbs 23:22-25 ESV
" (23)Listen to your father who gave you life, and do not despise your mother when she is old.
(24)Buy truth, and do not sell it; buy wisdom, instruction, and understanding.
(25)The father of the righteous will greatly rejoice; he who fathers a wise son will be glad in him. Let your father and mother be glad; let her who bore you rejoice. "

Numbers & Figures. pft.

2009-05-05T19:48:00.000-07:00

Thing about Poly is, It's so darn free and easy.
(although the e-learning crap is crap)
(stupid log-ins)

I'm in CSA lesson now and it's pretty awesome considering
the entire lesson is held in a computer lab for 3 HOURS.
(and everyone knows what that MEANS =D )

okai, I've really nth interesting to tlk about this time.
Well but if you wana know my Malacca trip was great.
We ate peranakan food at almost every meal.
haha. BRING ON THE WEIGHT man~

Oh and we lodged in this perenakan Hotel, HOTEL PURI
It's pretty grand looking and the best part is it's facade
is one of a shophouse, on Jonker Walk.
Totally awesome.

The best part is you don't have to walk very far to sight see.
Cos everything you wana see is in Jonker Walk itself.

The only downside is, it's incredibly dirty
and, I fell sick during the trip.

Acid Drop.

2009-04-30T09:39:00.000-07:00

Well, I brought my skateboard to it's first real skating session with Shawn, Aloy and Zhen.
And my feelings are conflicting, I don't know weather to feel awesome that the decks not a white elephant anymore, or to ache badly cos it's got major scratches everywhere. =/ Part and parcel i guess.
I was trying to master the acid drop,
for 3 lousy hours.
and I havn't mastered it.
Brilliant or what. ._.

Anyhoo, I'm off for another family vacation won't be here for awhile.
Catcha soon. =)

because fridays are my free days.

2009-04-19T08:57:00.000-07:00

I've no school on Fridays =D hoho.

okai but tmr's my first official day of school.
so I decided why not I take one last look
at the crazy amount of notes we did on FB,
when we were waiting for school to start.

haha so I chanced upon a note that became a
prime ground for Corny Pick-up lines.haha.
(which, for the record, was all NC's idea =P)

Here goes nothing,

Naomi : Do you have a plaster ? because I think I fell for you.
Nicholas : You're not gonna leave with my heart without even giving me your number are you..?
Nai : Excuse me do you have a map? Cos i think I got lost in your eyes.
NC : Your the Cheese to my Mac...
Nai : Hey I lost my number. Could I have yours?
NC : I accidentally fell in love with you so... I'm gonna need your particulars for my insurance company...
Nai : I work as a locksmith..could I make an extra key to your heart ?
NC : This blank in my phone book is totally bugging me, Mind helping me fill that up?
Nai : I lost a sweet just now, but I seem to have found it now
NC : *Checks you out*
"I know what i want for Christmas..."
And in the event she sets an angry boyfriend on me...
"I WANT HER DRESS LA.!"
Nai : *guy/girl walks into the room*
" is it me or did it just get hot in here? "
NC : Are you a narcissist.? Cause i think it wouldn't be that hard to love someone as pretty as you.
Nai : Your so FINE, i wouldn't mind getting booked for it ;)
NC : My eye must REALLY behold you, since beauty is in the eye of the beholder..
Nai : I went to the doctor and he told me I had a permanent lump on the side of my head..then I realised it must have been caused by you, cos your always on my mind.
NC : *Whenever the girl starts walking, i hum the tune of Roy Orbison - Pretty Woman*
(Hum cause i can't sing to save my life xD)
Nai : Excuse me, do you have the time? I seemed to have used mine up watching at you.
NC : Could you join me for a cup of coffee..? I kinda need more sugar.

haha, well =) , I hope you guys had a heater on while readin all that.
Now you know who to go to if you ever need a Love Doctor. haha.

I'll be off to bed now.
Ciao.

First.

2009-04-15T07:42:00.000-07:00

First day of school.
I hope it gets better.
Really.
Not what I thought it would be.