Strike a Chord.

Awake abed.

2012-01-14T02:56:00.002+08:00

Every sound is amplified when you're awake abed.

The tick of your watch on the bedside table,

The crackling of your air-condition,

The rain against your window,

The rustle of your hair,

& your thoughts.

yes, life is unfair

2011-12-22T01:35:00.002+08:00

but how does it help to be angry at everything?
Good grief, i can't see how it's possible for you to blow up every small matter into a blooming hiroshima bomb.

don't feel like seeing your face.

2011-07-10T18:40:00.003+08:00

never realised how I was still angry,
until I saw your face.

TONIIIIIGHT, TONIIGHT

2011-04-29T13:20:00.001+08:00

We are ooahhhne, tonight~

We Are One Tonight.

2011-04-29T00:37:00.003+08:00

Switchfoot Live was AMAZING.

Played all the songs we loved.
And were just amazing~

Gosh I love Switchfoot.

my life is completely complete.

2011-04-28T00:08:00.002+08:00

SWITCHFOOT CONCERT @ 7.30 tonightttt
And I'm iiiiimmensely stoked, i am.

ch-booyah.
happy_girl_forever92@hotmail.com

2011-03-30T22:48:00.002+08:00

You've been of so much joy,
we all miss you. so much.
You're the prettiest, most demure, princess of a cat anyone could ask for.

I love you Halle Berry.
Rest in Peace.

Halle

2011-03-26T20:30:00.001+08:00

Come back my love,
Don't go until you say bye.
Come back.

heartache.

2011-03-19T15:21:00.002+08:00

S$129, 000 is a shitload of cash.
they'd have to work so hard.

I'm disappointed.

2011-03-15T18:02:00.003+08:00

I've gotta learn that sometimes what I find logical, is not what others find logical.
My perspective, is not everyone's perspective.
What I think is right, is not what others may think is right.
And sometimes, what is so obviously wrong, may not be so obvious to another.

So I really shouldn't be so imposing,
For disappointment only comes with expectations.

But I hope so honestly, that you've thought this through.

wlao eh.

2011-03-13T18:16:00.003+08:00

do you have to scream at everything.
wlao eh.
does your voice not get tired?
DOES IT NOT TIRE YOU WHEN YOU MAKE SOMETHING SO SMALL SO STRESSFUL
I EVEN GET TIRED WHEN THE VOICE IN MY HEAD IS SCREAMING, WHAT MORE PHYSICAL SCREAMING.

wlao eh.

2011-03-06T23:17:00.002+08:00

Birds of the feather DO flock together.
Is the future not important to you, my kin?
Just slight discipline and prudence. seriously, thats all.
Have you not learnt.
Don't waste the youth.

._____.

No, I don't want to talk.

2011-03-01T16:06:00.000+08:00

Is it, Honestly, necessary.

Checklist after abnormal

2011-02-26T23:58:00.000+08:00

1. Finish Dr Who Season 3
2. Re-watch all Star Wars Movies
3. Re-watch all Harry Potter Movies
4. Re-watch all LOTR Movies
5. Drown in sloth

SWITCHFOOT LIVE!

2011-02-11T00:26:00.000+08:00

Hwell, just gona dust these pages off the virtual shelves that is the interwebs - to bring you the most exciting piece of news i've had since ages.

SWICTHFOOT IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!

and i can't contain my joy.

Bucket list: First concert, a Switchfoot concert. [Check]

end of documentation.

oi.

2010-11-21T18:02:00.001+08:00

get to work.

okai.

title

2010-10-22T02:38:00.000+08:00

Funny how I always find myself back here when school's about to start.

School's about to start.

And right now I know I should be in bed,
but I'm not.
Because I'm being your typical teenager and it gives me petty joy to feel badass like that.
I can't really get to bed. I feel like I should be making full use of the remainder of the holidays.

And I really enjoy the wee hours of the night,
I like the quietness it brings.
I like how I can hear myself think, how I'm narrating the words I type now.

It's quiet and I like it.

Well I've found something else to do in the solace of my room.
And I think I will retreat to it.
It is sounding more and more appealing with each word I type.
Hopefully that will bring me rest soon.

Goodnight.

I haven't been here for quite a while.

2010-08-04T01:45:00.000+08:00

You see, it's late at night.
or morning,
call it what you might.

and I can't get to bed,
not without something to write.

I've gotten an urge that I can no longer fight.
It's to write a short poem with words that rhyme.

And I'm not too sure if that last word fits right.
But if you read my old posts, you'd see that
it never stopped me from writing what I like.

Now I'll tell you about my day,
with rhythm and pride
It started off when I was put in a plight.

I was washing my hair when the water had died.
Apparently, the water pump had spoiled
and it couldn't go up the pipe.

I gave myself a fright,
when it hit me with might
that I may not be able
to shower that night.

And the rest of the day was uneventful.
goodnight.

.

2010-06-21T00:45:00.000+08:00

in·ad·e·quate

Pronunciation: /-i-kwət/
Function: adj
1 : not adequate : deficient
2 : lacking the capacity for psychological maturity or adequate social adjustment inadequate personality
3: Naomi Liew
in·ad·e·quate·ly Function: adv

eating at me.

2010-06-06T01:59:00.000+08:00

tell me this is a passing phase.

Happy Mother's Day

2010-05-16T02:31:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the late post.
Here's to all moms,

Happy Mother's day

Thank you mom,
for having all 4 of us.

P.S. the border's different than usual cos i'm using a diff program

upsetting.

2010-04-22T18:51:00.000+08:00

restless
itching
wandering

in the most intangible way.

Wish I could tell you more,
But I'm quite lost myself.

Dealing with it.

2010-04-21T12:05:00.000+08:00

i warn you before you continue reading, that you probably have read sucha post a truckloada times before. ...

School is setting in.
and I can't determine the emotions I feel for this entity.

Hm.
Maybe it's sitting more on the side of dread,
tinted with anxiety.

I still feel rather inadequate.
I'll see how it goes as the semester progresses.

Right now, I'm just indulging myself in slight escapism.
Painting a reality in my mind that tells me,
if I continue the White Stripes album on loop
I wouldn't have to set off for school in half an hours time.

7 weeks.

2010-04-10T01:53:00.000+08:00

oh restless mind, won't you give my heart a rest.
oh restless heart, can't you see this is all a test.

the night's grown weary
and I'm getting dreary.

So, spare me and quit being a pest.

-

i feel like a whiny lil brat,
with a coupla rhyming words

though you'd think imma fool,
but come on it makes me feel cool,
and feel better before going back to school.

Motherland.

2010-04-01T22:16:00.000+08:00

I've only recently got around to telling you about my trip to China, because i have to settle back into Singapore (and it's humidity).
Okai, I also got a bit lazy.
But I realised, this is the first time I've been to China so I've got to document it.

I'd like to start off by saying.
Chinah was awesomezxzxzxzxz~!
yea.
I think it is, really.

FOOD there was awesome~!
hardly did any shopping. My dad and i were just out and about looking for food.
Food over goods, man. Food over goods.

Despite all the awesomeness, I undoubtedly had trouble communicating.__.
Let me illustrate to you my awesome communication skillz. I tell you I can slay ladies with these skillz.

Note: the lady says everything in Mandarin

Lady at airport: excuse me are you taking the bus, is there a bus that goes to (whatever place that was)? <-- A double barreled question which inevitably threw me off course.__.
Naomi: O_O
Lady: mm, are you taking the bus out?
Naomi: *forms an answer in my mind* *attempts to answer question* *opens mouth* --- *connection lost* ----- *mouth hangs open making a sorry excuse for a gawk* --- *awkward silence*
Lady: *makes a face* can you speak Mandarin?
Naomi: *chokes* *gives up* No, wo bu hui.
Lady: *laughs and walks away*
Naomi: *mentally slapping myself*

yea, the story of my life.
.___. thing was i understood her, but i couldn't reply her. Please imagine my frustration, hesitation and confusion all flourishing mercilessly at that single moment.
A mind spaz ending with an embarrassing gawk.
I truly felt like a failure .__.
couldn't even answer a simple question liddat.

but
Anyhoo, the best thing about the entire trip was that I got to spend it with my dad.
Good ol' father and daughter bonding time.
It's amazing how so much wisdom and knowledge could be stored in one man. (things he said made alot of sense to me luh at least)

Oddly or not, the part I enjoyed the most was sitting down together with him in the room, doing quiet time. He has all these questions and answers that are so intellectually and spiritually stimulating. It just felt great to be conversing so spiritedly with him.

I sincerely thank God for my Dad, thank him whole-heartedly for putting such wise council in my life. Don't get me wrong though, I've always been thanking God for my Dad just that now my gratefulness is at it's epitome.
And also thank God, quite simply, for providing for us. Leaving for China was hardly easy, and yet God did his thing and here we are with a trip to China under our belts. =)

Where I stood.

2010-03-21T11:20:00.000+08:00

Well, I've seen it for myself.
And no doubt, it hurts.
Stings, like thousands of little needles prickling the heart.
It hurts, like cheese fries and chicken nuggets.

Yea, it sucks to be thinking like that.
I thought i was done thinking about it.
Guess not.
And here I am seeking abit of comfort in what I write.

I hope you know what you're doing then.
And that you've seeked his will.

What happened to guarding her heart?

God, help.

REDS.

2010-03-12T18:35:00.000+08:00

yes, this is a confirmation to all your speculation.
I am indeed, a boy.
;)

Waging a War.

2010-03-07T15:09:00.000+08:00

Helmet of Salvation
Breastplate of Righteousness
Belt of Truth
Shield of Faith
Sandals of Peace
Sword of The Spirit

THIS IS WAR.

I'm here to list out words starting with M.

2010-03-05T18:08:00.000+08:00

Yes.
I have caught Alice in 3D
(from this point on, you should try to read the rest of the post with a British accent, because every time i watch a movie with british voices, my thoughts end up defaulting to it for the next few days.)

So here's a coupla words - or just 3 rather, starting with the letter M.
I have displayed them here because when I was sourcing for it, it sounded mighty odd or it had a relation to the show.

Mad: mentally disturbed; deranged; insane; Sok Yee; demented;
OR an adjective used to enhance a noun.
(this word isn't quite unusual but i thought it had great relations to the movie.)

Magniloquent: speaking in a grand or pompous style.
(this is here because i find this word absolutely fitting of the British accent. Perhaps it's just me.)

Myrmecophilous: having a symbiotic relationship with ants.
(and this word is here, solely because i found it amusing. )

hah.

Anyhoo,
i thought the movie was only slightly above average, slightly.
I wouldn't say it's worth all 14bucks, but it's worth to watch it again if it isn't in 3D.
I was a tad disappointed because I expected a darker spin to the movie.
Oh, but I did find the red queen and the fat boys strangely funny.
And that's probably the main reason why i want to catch it again.
Okai, maybe that and the fact that the movie was so attractively queer.

Well,
that's about it.
I haven't got anymore clever things to say.
I think i'll be off to find out why ravens are like writing desks.

Toodles~!

P.S. One more day Mandy, just one more.

τρυπημένος

2010-03-03T18:08:00.000+08:00

yea, see the title?

it means "Bored", in greek.

betcha didn't know that.

you must be thinking, why do i care?

i'm asking myself the same question.

...
I'm at coffee bean, with a restless soul and nothing to do.
.___.
so i'm currently playing an RPG game. yea.
story of my life?
mmhm.

i'm as bored as the useless exercise machine in the corner of your living room.
i'm as bored as the chinese textbook sitting on your shelf.
i'm as bored as when your listening to your father repeat his life-long lessons.
i'm as bored as when your waiting for Sims 3 to finish loading.
i'm as bored as when your listening to your brother ranting about his day in school.
i'm as bored as you, reading my post.

Ciao.

TGFF indeed. (Thank God For Francis)

2010-02-28T22:09:00.000+08:00

Friday was my first attempt of productively wasting my holidays.
Because I deserve to.

Nice try, Sok.
Nice try.

What's life without the unglamness right.
I'd like to call this self-esteem.

Hanate(boob), Regina and R-Dizzle.
NigaHiga Skitzos. Watch it if you haven't.

Well there was much more nonsense going on
in the background that we didn't capture.
...
Because
There's NO-SLEEP-TILL-BROOKLYNNN~!
and we weren't standing on the rooftops, but we were screaming our heaaart out.

T02.

recovery.

2010-02-26T00:38:00.000+08:00

Yea, this coupla weeks have been pretty rough.
exams, and plenty more.

But no doubt, God was keeping me through it.
I was pleasantly surprised at how i managed to pull through without giving up.
It was horribly torturous and taxing.
But like I said, once again, God never fails.
I don't know how to appropriately bring what I'm feeling across,
Except that I'm convinced I serve such a faithful and amazing God.

On a side note,
I'm crazy itching to go bum with you guys.
And in the words of Mandy,
" I LARVE YOU, guys ".

Not likely...but give it a go.

2010-02-05T01:36:00.000+08:00

The heart.
So small compared to the entire body.
Yet such a powerful little bugger.

With it now,
I'd rather live without.

Selfish?
Yea, I think so too.

So help me.
Please?

I'm really just trying to avoid it.

2010-01-17T18:09:00.000+08:00

when I write about having nothing to write at all,
I'm writing something.

when I think I'm thinking nothing at all,
I'm thinking something.

But sadly,
when I do nothing at all,
nothing is done.

please feel my despair .____.

This is what I tell my homework.

2010-01-10T01:57:00.000+08:00

Yet somehow, They never believed me.

New year, new fears.

2009-12-31T17:47:00.000+08:00

New year, new fears.
But I pray Lord,
that these doubts, you'll help me clear.

" My son, give attention to my words;
Incline your ear to my saying.

Do not let them depart from your eyes;
Keep them in the midst of your heart;
For they are life to those who find them,
And health to all their flesh.

Keep your heart with diligence,
For out of it spring the issues of life.

Put away from you a deceitful mouth,
And put perverse lips far from you.

Let your eyes look straight ahead,
And your eyelids look right before you.

Ponder the path of your feet,
And let all your ways be established.

Do not turn to the right or left;
remove your foot from evil."

Proverbs 4:20-27

too much.

2009-12-25T22:30:00.000+08:00

Before I do what i'm going to do,
I would like to add a disclaimer that i'm in no way scene, emo or both.
and i've never done this before,

but i'm kinda tired,
so here goes nothing.

*stabs heart*

ciao.

Back for 2 weeks but gone for more.

2009-12-16T14:48:00.000+08:00

It's the holidays.
It's back.

It's nice to just sit down in my porch again and take my time to do stuff.
The rain makes it feel better.
Breeze and all.

But,
despite the unhurried posture,
there's still matters upsetting my peace.

I would tell you,
but then I'd have to kill you.

heh.
sorry, momentary ninja relapses.

www.mysterygoogle.com
you know you want to.

boo school.

2009-11-18T00:18:00.000+08:00

Took me quite abit to get here.
I had to type the entire word "Blogger.com" to get to the site. heh.
I haven't been here for so long that mozilla doesn't even remember it anymore.

You see, I've grown apart from blogging.
Besides telling you that school still sucks, I've no more confounding
information to update you guys with no more.

I don't have anymore random-short stories or poems
because my schedule doesn't permit.
(either tht or, it does, but I'm bad at organising my time - but thts besides the point)

So,
you must be wondering,
why am i still here dishing out this post then?

Well,
because this is an attempt to inject hope
into my withering vocab and surpressed burst of aesthetic.
To remind myself that I've still got this little page in
the sea of the world-wide web to do graffiti.

No sweat,
I'll still be coming back here with installments,
Perhaps sporadic but nevertheless existant installments.

Ciao.

(haha you must be thinking, "gee, what a useless post.")
(well yea, I think so too)

It's school you see.

2009-10-31T00:06:00.000+08:00

I feelabit inadequate.

(an inspiration in class)

The Botanical Gardens.

2009-09-24T23:15:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIV
(sry for the late wish)

Cupcakes & leftover Popcorn chicken = Creamy Chicken

nothing rhetoric but a little esotheric.

2009-09-15T16:29:00.000+08:00

I've always thought-
I don't know about you,
that some birthdays were more important then others.

Like your 16th birthday's more improtant cos it's the SWEET 16
your 18th birthday is more important cos you're allowed to
smoke and drink legally(not that I do)
and your 21st birthday is more important cos that's when your offically an adult...
and etc etc,
you catch my drift.

So I started out this month thinking that my 17th
is just another birthday.
Big whoop.

But I was wrong.

I came to realise on this birthday, that all birthdays are equally important.

Because when I celebrate birthdays, I celebrate it with family and friends.
And it's precisely the family and friends that make birthdays so important.

Every year as I celebrate my birthday, it serves as a reminder of
how blessed I am to have the people around me.
I am reminded that the years spent roaming this rock is not for nothing.

Even if it isn't a bigscale celebration, those birthdays are still important
simply because I never fail to celebrate it with people I hold close.
Once again, cliche, but I mean it.

Thk you guys.
You know who you are.

=)

Out in my porch.

2009-09-05T23:10:00.000+08:00

a pallet of blue
a faint tangy smell of grass
a light humidity - as if the grass itself were perspiring
a soft stream of wind - only enough to comb through your hair and hit you like spring water

all these are the essence of a free day.

=)

Deserved break.

2009-08-28T18:33:00.000+08:00

Exams are over.

And I'm free to do whatever I want.

=D

I have a friend.

2009-08-23T01:35:00.000+08:00

I have a friend.
He isn't the fullest of men,
He has intuitions like that of a mother hen.
and that's something I still can't comprehend.

Comprehend I can't,
but it's importance I can fend.
He always knew when or what text should be sent,
to evoke a smile in the end.

End of the day, I have this friend.
He says he doesn't get enough compliments.
So here I am in my defense
to prove how much I meant
when I said you're a great friend.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
alright, it's 2:40am
Goodnight, sleep tight~
...

=l

2009-08-17T23:35:00.000+08:00

Now, how would I know what's going on unless you tell me.
I am trying to understand.
Tsk.

I kinda miss you pal.
Can't you tell?

So short yet so long.

2009-08-09T13:28:00.000+08:00

* inhales *

I'm Tired
=/

What's Next?

* exhales *

Senescence in Retrograde.

2009-08-01T20:54:00.000+08:00

Simple things really. simple things. Two numbers and a movie was
all it took to make my day.

8 & 9. funny numbers really. Never thought it would mean so much to me.
As I was sitting 89 home today, it brought back good memories.
My heart was aching man, no kid.
I wana go back to secondary school so bad.
sigh.

+

Freaky Friday.
A chick flick.
But once again funny how much influence it had in
my life.
Still remember clearly, p6 when I first watched it.

It blew me away.
The guitar.
Anna's spunk.
The mom's job.
The mom.
The corny morals in the movie
They blew me away.

The guitar riffs weren't even brilliant but smt
just hit me I guess - made me wana play the guitar.

And I didn't even know much about the mom's job but smt
just hit me again I guess - and today I'm still chasing the dream of
being a psychiatrist.
(okai psychologist for now)

=

Which equates to the best thing about today.

I met Mandy today, my girlfriend from secondary school.
Which! I haven't met in ages.
We sat 89 home tgt and coincidently we saw tht they were airing Freaky Friday tonight.
And so happens OUR SONG is in the soundtrack of Freaky Friday.
Ultimate by Lindsay Lohan.

It just warms the heart ya know.
well yea...

okai i'm sry this entire post is so unrhythmically written,
but I really don't care at this point.
I'm tired,
but I just wana let you know I'm a happy smuck today.
=)

Ciao.

School sucks, take drugs - and then you die.

2009-07-16T15:58:00.000+08:00

The above is my current slogan for school.
I've already pictured a banner of it hanging at the school's main entrance.
\m/

I'm sorry, just lemme be a typical poly student for awhile alright?
Post-LOA reeks.
The LOA left us with an incredible amount of make-up lessons.
Oh joy.

This week we had 9hours of Principles of Statistics.
9 boring hours of Tze Min droning.
okai, drawling & droning._.
Like seriously, does she have to talk so slowly?
You could melt hearing her speak.

But the worst thing so far this week is,
I haven't got a free friday tmr.
poppin' cheesepies.
=(

*jumps out the window*

alright, I'm still here.

but I'm done complainning.

I think I'm gona walk out the door instead.
Ciao.

One more reason to be a dad.

2009-07-02T15:12:00.000+08:00

Another late post.
Okai, very late post.
Anw,
Happy Belated Father's Day.

Just wana thank you
for letting me take ballet lessons Dad.

Ballet sucked,
But

I love you.
Cos it's the rides home from ballet that I treasure.
No matter how tired,
thankfully you were there to bring me home with pleasure.
When we had to travel from Marine Parade all the way to Pasir Ris,
I get to spend quality time with you

And that's a joy I'll never trade

Despite the weariness,
You make me laugh myself to bits.

Now that there's no more ballet,
I finally get to spend dinner time with you and the family,
I love you.

And I'm glad that I can make you laugh now.

(Read the sentences in red from bottom up, and I'm sure it's how my dad feels about me too.)
=)

On everyone's lips.

2009-06-26T21:03:00.000+08:00

To the King of Pop,

You are not alone
Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
You are not alone

All alone
Why, oh

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
So forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Then something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
And you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone

P.S. I wanted to go to at least one of his concerts. =/

My apologies.

2009-06-23T13:57:00.000+08:00

Sry I know I haven't been here for quite awhile.
Yes, my excuse is homework too.

It really is time consuming.
School Reeks.

I've got a confession to make though,
I use to wish they would close school down cos of the rising
number of H1N1 cases.
(indirectly, wishing for more people to contract H1N1)

Probably, cos I didn't think it would hit that close to home.

I was wrong undoubtedly.
Cos it's closer to home then I expected.

I'm going for a check up later..
Hopefully, nothing's worng and I didn't bring it to my immediate family.
Which me luck.

Ciao.

lucky to have stayed where we have stayed.

2009-06-13T00:18:00.000+08:00

haha well it's more of lucky for them to stay where they've stayed.
A little less lucky for me ,
cos it was my house that the guys converted into a
lan shop/hotel/cinema/recording studio.

food.
wires.
movies.
laptops.
blankets.

Notice the "S" in them.
Imagine the mess.
all over the space of my living room.

But it's cool.

I couldn't ask for better company.
It's not so much of what we did,
but simply the existance.

It's probably what friendships are build upon.

Thanks dudes.
My sincerity from the mere memory.

Holidays.

2009-06-08T15:08:00.000+08:00

I'm having my Holidays.
Or so they say.
But you probably know that already,
So I'm not gona write about it.

I've just been thinking again.
What after this?
You know that feeling of uncertainty you have when
you're taking your O levels, like Poly or JC will determine your
path of life in the future and what not.
Yea that feeling.

It's Back.

3 years will go in a flash, I'm told.
What's after Poly?

Studying here is hardly appealing. =S
Studying overseas, would mean that I'll have to start
living life all over again.=/
That too is hardly appealing.

Dammit.

=/ okai, I'm sorry this post was so pointless.
It doesn't even have a conclusion.
well oh well.

so I asked myself...

2009-06-04T15:29:00.000+08:00

what do you make of...
when you smell a scent that makes you swell,
see a colour that makes you flutter,
engage in a sport that flags more than thought,
sense a vibe that makes you wana hold on tight.

I tell myself, it must be it.

But then again,
what happens if I...

don't smell the scent that makes me swell,
see the colour but no longer flutter,
leave the sport because it flags more than a thought,
lose the vibe because it wasn't meant to be tight.

Perhaps it's all too soon to tell. =/

(you probably won't understand this, haha btr tht you don't maybe,
but well I had to let it out somewhere~)

?

2009-06-01T18:43:00.000+08:00

FPsych paper's over.
._.
it was much easier than I thought it would be.
tsk, Made me waste my emotions(generated by the limbic system, located in your forebrain)
on worrying about it.

Anw, since I feel much less tense now,
I've an urge to write a buncha words pulled out of my head that rhyme haha.

gargle bubble
red bed
bag tag
unique antique
breed weed
think pink
gold and bold
impair a pear
incessant obsession
holy moly
great grape
pamper temper
pieces of thesis
tapestry mystery
pie fly
peeling feeling

p.s I don't know, not again, but it's bubblin.

________

2009-05-20T13:56:00.000+08:00

Scrap what I said in the post before this.
I don't know what you think but poly, IS stressful.
I'm deprived.
and it's only the 5th week into Poly.
It sucks.
I whine.

I would like to write a nice lil poem now but
my mind's empty. Sucked dry and shrivelled up
from all the theory processing.

Guys will never know.

2009-05-12T23:10:00.000+08:00

A belated tribute to my mom.

" My mom, she's very loud.
My mom, she never listens.
My mom, she's demanding.

but my Mom,
She gave birth to me.

When I was born.

I was very loud.
I too never listened.
I was always demanding.

Simply because of that, I love my Mom.
And she must love me too. "
-Naomi Liew

Proverbs 23:22-25 ESV
" (23)Listen to your father who gave you life, and do not despise your mother when she is old.
(24)Buy truth, and do not sell it; buy wisdom, instruction, and understanding.
(25)The father of the righteous will greatly rejoice; he who fathers a wise son will be glad in him. Let your father and mother be glad; let her who bore you rejoice. "

Numbers & Figures. pft.

2009-05-06T10:48:00.000+08:00

Thing about Poly is, It's so darn free and easy.
(although the e-learning crap is crap)
(stupid log-ins)

I'm in CSA lesson now and it's pretty awesome considering
the entire lesson is held in a computer lab for 3 HOURS.
(and everyone knows what that MEANS =D )

okai, I've really nth interesting to tlk about this time.
Well but if you wana know my Malacca trip was great.
We ate peranakan food at almost every meal.
haha. BRING ON THE WEIGHT man~

Oh and we lodged in this perenakan Hotel, HOTEL PURI
It's pretty grand looking and the best part is it's facade
is one of a shophouse, on Jonker Walk.
Totally awesome.

The best part is you don't have to walk very far to sight see.
Cos everything you wana see is in Jonker Walk itself.

The only downside is, it's incredibly dirty
and, I fell sick during the trip.

Acid Drop.

2009-05-01T00:39:00.000+08:00

Well, I brought my skateboard to it's first real skating session with Shawn, Aloy and Zhen.
And my feelings are conflicting, I don't know weather to feel awesome that the decks not a white elephant anymore, or to ache badly cos it's got major scratches everywhere. =/ Part and parcel i guess.
I was trying to master the acid drop,
for 3 lousy hours.
and I havn't mastered it.
Brilliant or what. ._.

Anyhoo, I'm off for another family vacation won't be here for awhile.
Catcha soon. =)

because fridays are my free days.

2009-04-19T23:57:00.000+08:00

I've no school on Fridays =D hoho.

okai but tmr's my first official day of school.
so I decided why not I take one last look
at the crazy amount of notes we did on FB,
when we were waiting for school to start.

haha so I chanced upon a note that became a
prime ground for Corny Pick-up lines.haha.
(which, for the record, was all NC's idea =P)

Here goes nothing,

Naomi : Do you have a plaster ? because I think I fell for you.
Nicholas : You're not gonna leave with my heart without even giving me your number are you..?
Nai : Excuse me do you have a map? Cos i think I got lost in your eyes.
NC : Your the Cheese to my Mac...
Nai : Hey I lost my number. Could I have yours?
NC : I accidentally fell in love with you so... I'm gonna need your particulars for my insurance company...
Nai : I work as a locksmith..could I make an extra key to your heart ?
NC : This blank in my phone book is totally bugging me, Mind helping me fill that up?
Nai : I lost a sweet just now, but I seem to have found it now
NC : *Checks you out*
"I know what i want for Christmas..."
And in the event she sets an angry boyfriend on me...
"I WANT HER DRESS LA.!"
Nai : *guy/girl walks into the room*
" is it me or did it just get hot in here? "
NC : Are you a narcissist.? Cause i think it wouldn't be that hard to love someone as pretty as you.
Nai : Your so FINE, i wouldn't mind getting booked for it ;)
NC : My eye must REALLY behold you, since beauty is in the eye of the beholder..
Nai : I went to the doctor and he told me I had a permanent lump on the side of my head..then I realised it must have been caused by you, cos your always on my mind.
NC : *Whenever the girl starts walking, i hum the tune of Roy Orbison - Pretty Woman*
(Hum cause i can't sing to save my life xD)
Nai : Excuse me, do you have the time? I seemed to have used mine up watching at you.
NC : Could you join me for a cup of coffee..? I kinda need more sugar.

haha, well =) , I hope you guys had a heater on while readin all that.
Now you know who to go to if you ever need a Love Doctor. haha.

I'll be off to bed now.
Ciao.

First.

2009-04-15T22:42:00.000+08:00

First day of school.
I hope it gets better.
Really.
Not what I thought it would be.

Curiosity killed the cat.

2009-04-09T15:20:00.000+08:00

okai in this case, curiosity killed the terrapin. Literally.

I'm sorry for using these terrapins as an example.
but the situation is really apt, you see.
okai that, AND cos there's something abt terrapins that irk me. =/

Right, So at work there are 3 terrapins that we are to ship overseas.
And the week before they are to be shipped one of em
finally managed to climb out of the container it was in.
The terrapin ended up dead at the bottom floor of the 7 story building ._.

Morbid, but here's the lesson.
(okai but I can't deny I didn't laugh and think, "wow stupid terrapin". sorry =S)
anyhoo, lesson learned - Boundaries are there for a reason

preachy huh, but true isn't it?
the terrapin had TWO boundaries, it crossed both, and it died.
first, it was kept in the container to protect it from being squished.
second, the container was in a house so that it won't be squished.
it crossed both and it was squished._.

and funny thing is like us, the terrapin wasn't aware of the dangers it faced outside the boundaries.
so it kept tryin to claw its way out.
and when it finally did... (everybody now,)
it got squished.

Not sayin that we're anything like terrapins,
or that if we cross boundaries we'll get squished..haha.
but the consequences are definitely real.

oh and one more lesson,
(but before this, know that it's in terrapins to claw at every lousy container they're in to escape)
okai so, in the same container was another terrapin that
was sick when it was young so it's extremely small compared to the other terrapin
that got squished.
so if you think of it, it's size was kinda like the blemishes we humans have.
But ! that in the end, saved the terrapins life,
haha cos it wasn't tall enough to climb outta the container.

okai so the lesson to this is - that things might seem unfair or tough in the
beginning but well God has his reasons, and it'll work out in the end.
if it hasn't worked out, then it's not the end.

unlike the first terrapin. ;)

LYRA : Fresh Face.

2009-03-31T15:52:00.000+08:00

Hair, nothing sticking out - Check.
Shirt, straight - Check.
Skirt, straight - Check.
Face, nothing weird on it - Check.
Okai Lyra, now take a deep breath and just walk in.
You'll look fine - hopefully.

With her books in hand and all the guts
her body could muster, Lyra stopped talking to herself
and decided to enter lecture theatre.

She laid her weight against the handle
and pushed the heavy door open.

Fumbling in,
Her eyes adjusted to the bright lights,
Her ears took in the new found volume of chatter
and Her nose, the smell of new clothes.
Unconsciously, her vision focused to scan the clothes
of her classmates-to-be, then flickered back to her own
for confirmation.
And all these, surprisingly, happened in a matter of seconds.

"okai, at least I look normal." she muttered under the noise,
Then realising she's been holding her breath all these while.

"Breeathe. Now all you have to do is stay calm and find a seat" , continuing her attempt
to organise her actions.

Taking a place located at the furthest, most desolated corner,
Lyra took comfort in the fact that she could see the mass but
they couldn't see her.

She then began unpacking her stationary,
but not before taking a glance at the entire mass to uncover any weird stares.
Thankfully, there weren't any.

However, quicker than she would like, all her stationary were
set out neatly in a minute.

For a brief awkward moment she bit her lips,
her mind in turbulence, wondering what to do next.

Arriving at an idea, she dived into her bagpack to
pull out a book. Then plunged her mind
immediately into it, to mask her nerves.

Unfortunately, under all the noise and jitter
her concentration was fraying.
For minutes she remained on the same page,
reading the same word thrice over.
Not giving up, she resorted to a mini battle in her mind
to regain her concentration.
That, nevertheless, failed.

Once again Lyra fret to find something else to do.

This time however a clear voice from beside her
penetrated her thoughts.
Involunteerily, she drew in a short sharp breath
and looked to her right,snapping out of her thoughts.

There she saw a white smile beaming at her.
" Is anyone sitting there?", the lad pointed to the chair beside her.

Stunned for a moment, she didn't reply.
Then suddenly comprehending his question, Lyra floundered to answer it.
" Yes - I mean no, no, no one's sitting here. You may have it.",
she said then proceeding to return a grin.

_____________________________________________________________

oh no oh no oh no, school's starting.
is it wrong to feel afraid/nervous/uneasy/dead?
The above is only the best case scenario.

help.

Lost & Terrified.

2009-03-24T12:11:00.000+08:00

Kara DioGuardi
is one awesome singer.

Well, I knew she could sing pretty well,
But not this well.
Her voice blows me away man.

Here's the link to Terrified,
haha the song title is absolutely not true to the song itself.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6a1lfnjqC4I
(and I can't get this one out of my head.)

And here's the cover she did for Lost,
haha well this one's true to the song title.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gBKszP4ZGJw

=)
credits to shawn.

Tell me.

2009-03-19T11:47:00.000+08:00

What am I suppose to do when,
I know what's wrong but
I can't right what's wrong?

What am I suppose to do if
they don't see where they're wrong and
won't listen to where they go wrong?

What am I suppose to do
If they're so caught up in their own misery?

What am I suppose to do when,
"you're too young to understand, Naomi" ?

What am I suppose to think when
I look them in the face
and realise they own me?

What am I suppose to say when
the truth really does hurt.?

What am I to do when
words fail.

Lord, now would be good.

left with love. (a post long overdue)

2009-03-15T17:09:00.000+08:00

SK II !
This ENTIIIIIRE post is dedicated to you guys, coated with
my mushy and cliche appreciation for ya'll. =D
(though some of ya'll probably won't read it.)

I'm sorry this post is long overdue but
being bck at SK2 today reminded me that I still had this post tht i haven't published.
Brace yourself, It's a long one.

In alphabetical order,

BEN TAN
Hey dude, Haven't known you for a long time,
so i haven't got much to say.
But, I know though, that I'm glad you came to be part of SK2.
Have fun there and i pray you'll grow closer to God.

BRYAN
=) haha you never fail to make me smile. I mean your just so
cheery most of the time, And i think your smile's just really contagious.
Also in cell I find that you're really open and you're
willing to share with us even the tiniest problems that you face,
and well, thts awesome.

DANIEL
Hey there rocker, firstly I would like to say that you've a great taste
for music=) haha now when I find that I need fresh music,
you usually pop into my mind.
And no doubt you are a really fun guy to be around.
And you might not notice but you're pretty gentlemanly,
and I'd like to thank you for being that way. Oh and I think i recall reading
on your blog?-once before that you feel you aren't a good friend?or some sort.
haha well, oh contrary, I think you truly will make a good friend =)
All the very best for O's dude, haha no pressure.
I'll be glad to assist if you need any =)
Oh and be sure you recognise a bus from a motorcycle BEFORE
you get your driver's license haha.

DARREN
Hey Man, I haven't known you for a long time but I think you should know
that it's great how you make an effort to attend service regularly. And i'm
pretty sure you've grown alil these whiles. And if you keep pressin in I'm sure
God won't fail you, dealing with school and all would probably be easier.=)
I truly pray that you'll be an awesome testimony to your friends for God.
Cya around soon.

DEBORAH LEE
Crazy Woman~! You really have no idea What a joy you are =D
Besides what I said in the many cards I wrote to you on
the many occasions, haha, I think that you're so awesome
in the way that you rarely judge people. And I really look up to for that.=) Really.
haha I guess thts probably why you make friends so easily.
I just wana thank you for being so caring and SINCERE and such a joy. =)
P.S if you ever wana borrow my jeans too.. ;P

DEBRA LIM
Hey Babe! I'd like to thank you for always being such a great friend at cell.
Gosh, I'm just extremely glad I was able to see you grow so much spiritually and physically.
HAHA I still remember that when you first entered the cell your answer
to every question would be "I Dunno".
But now it's not anymore!
And I think that in school you really face alot of temptations, but all these while
you haven't really given in to them. That's really awesome.
Heh and you're really doin a great job at being a prayer IC,
you're usually very thoughtful=) and I truly appreciate it =)

ENREKA
Hey love, I haven't seen you in so long! I truly miss you.
I think you should know that your really sweet and gentle=)
haha and your laughter is really One of a kind, it's totally silent~!
I don't really know the reason why you can't come but I pray that you won't
lose your faith in God. And in anything lean on his strength=)
He'll never let you down, I'm sure. Can't wait to cya around soon!

JOSHUA SHO
Joshie Woshie~! haha. I really wanna thank you for being such a great friend,
even during times where I get alil unreasonable. Thank you for always bothering to care
and for not flaring up when I get unreasonable=) I'm truly sry for times where I might have
offended you with my words-looking back I know I definitely did.
Oh and just to let you know you were the one who actually got
me started on doing quiet time regularly. =) And you've no Idea how grateful I am
for that, I still roughly recall that conversation I had with you after so long=)
Thank you. I found a true friend in you=)
FEEEEEEEEEEEEEED UP =P
(sry I couldn't resist.haha)

LAY MIAN
Hey Love, I find you're really sweet and gentle..and it's a very likable character
you posses=) I truly enjoyed the times I spent with you in YOU camp,
It's the most memorable so far, and I really really wana see you again soon.
Gosh you haven't been in cell for the longest time.I've been bck to visit twice already
and I haven't seen you there!
Again I do not know the reason, but I also pray you will not lose your faith in God.
He'll see you through it all. He has for me=) Cya around soon.

MING WEI
Hey dude, I thought you should know that you're really fun to be around.
And your smile's extremely contagious. No kid. And the things you do sometimes
are reeeeally funny, and the best part is you're seldom aware of it.haha!
Also I find it's really awesome that you very very rarely get angry, and I think
that's a very valued character you posses, and just so you know I look up to you
for that. It's great and that way I can tell you truly love God. =)

RACHEL
I hope I spelled it right. Don't think you notice but, I think you're really funny in your own little subtle way.haha! Well I haven't known you for very long but I'm glad I did anyway. There's this something about you that makes you seem very intelligent, that your silently absorbing information.haha.
And I like it that you're very down-to-earth =) Hope to see you around soon. I wana know you better =)

SAMUEL DO
Hey dude, well I dont know you very well either, But I can see you're serious about your
relationship with God, and well, that's awesome. Also I'd like to comment you on your worship.
haha I don't know why but I always seem to notice your worship during cell, and I think that your worship really comes from your heart and I look up to that.=)

SAMUEL YUAN
Sam you've really, truly impacted my life alot, and I can't thank you enough for it.
Your an amazing cell leader. And it's so great that you care for each and everyone of us
so much. Thank you for leading SK2 with so much passion you really brought joy
to the cell, in my opinion. And thank you for being a true role model for me-in so so many ways, um I don't know but I find it very easy to relate to you, and when times got rough, I find myself lookin to you as a model. haha I told myself that if God could keep you through the tough times you had and mould you to be the great person you are now, he will be able to do the same for me. And you might not know it but this played a huge part in me hanging on to God =)
Also thank you for bringing worship in SK2 to a higher level, I really encountered God then.Oh and also for making and shaping us to own our cell. The little things you say and assign us to do really allows us to own and be proud of our cell.
Thank you lastly, for being such a gentlemen and setting such a good example for the other guys in SK2. heh heh you'll truly make a good husband.=)
*hint hint, it's about time you got attached ~~*
Really, Thanks Sam. =)

WEI LUN
Hey dude, I'm sry I don't know much about you considering the sparse amount
of time I've spent with you but I truly hope that you'll find a friend in God and really get to know him.
You'll be amazed of the things he can do in your life if you earnestly seek him=)

ZACHARY TANG
Hey man~ Once again I'm extremely glad I was able to witness you grow to be such a
awesome teen of God. haha seriously it's unbelievable how much you've grown. I still
can't get over it. well Thanks Zach for being so concerned and committed to the cell, sometimes you might not show it well or show it at all, but I think it really can be felt, even through the
your treasurer duties haha. I truly think you're a good friend. And after seeing the crazy side of you I can't wait to see other sides of you.haha. Continue to keep this faith you have in God, and
share it with all your neighbours, be it annoying or not. ;)

This took really really long to write. I probably had forgotten some stuff halfway thru..haha
so take note I might be back to edit.
Love you guys. You really made a difference and impact in my heart=)

Commander, One down.

2009-03-11T17:32:00.000+08:00

Here's on a random note,

I've come to realise,
I don't know about you,
but,
you can never win, with war movies.

If the movie's bad, it bores you to death.
If it's good, then it makes you cry.

And EITHER way, it ruins your spirit after watching it.
.__.

jeez.

Bring on the street credit.haha.

2009-03-06T17:00:00.000+08:00

ALRIGHT~! I've finally got my SKATEBOARD.

I'm a happy and alil money-stretched smuck,
but that's okai
cos I've gotten my Skateboard~ Wooh!

And the best part is my parents didn't say anything
about how much it cost.

Howeverrr,
I've a teensy problem,
I currently don't know how to properly stop the board
W/O falling off.
._.
And I havn't found a proper place to practice yet..
hmm

suggestions?

P.S Thanks Shin for running around with me to find the board shop.
Gosh, two road idiots lookin for a place.
Oh, and promise to bring me with you when you go get your blades alright?
I owe you one =)

too much to hate?

2009-03-05T18:12:00.000+08:00

I dislike going to the office because,
I'd rather stay at home and play my guitar.

I hate it,
beacuse I'll have to go thorough double the politics,
both there and here at home.

I loathe the fact that
this business is neccesary for our income.

I deplore it,
because it's a ground writhhing with oppotunities for us to fight.

I thoroughly resent it,
because I'm obliged by family relantion and guilt
to go to work.

And I scorn it,
because this guilt is not implored by my parents,
but myself.

And I hate that I hate it.
tsk.

Probably wouldv'e gone to JC if I'd knew =\

2009-03-05T01:24:00.000+08:00

Poly Enrollment is an INCREDIBLE
pain in the arse.

I havn't the slightest clue what the
financial part of the package means.

And the mandatory medical check up
makes up the bulk of the incredible-pain-in-the-arse-ness.

The clinics were either all the way at Orchard/Jurong or I have to wake up early for T3 or risk gettin hopelessly lost in Bedok.

So i chose Orchard.

I didn't know a clinic existed in Ngee Ann City.__.
I took forever to find it.
(thanks Liv and Shin for running around wit me)

Oh and I've to go back tmr to collect my results.
AND another time 2 weeks later to take the urine test thing...
because my period just HAD to fall during the time when I went for the check up.

Like Ugh.
TSK.

Random Stories : This girl i knew. (Becuase i'm so bored it stirs poetic rambles)

2009-02-23T13:07:00.000+08:00

There was this girl I knew,
Her hair all curly and strewn.

On these grounds, she was far from new,
as we all noticed her eyes of such vibrant hues.

Yet to her there was a quiet mien,
that no one could ever screen.
Expressions of such silent themes,
To us it might be impossible, it seems.

She always has a doll in her hands,

whose hair she could plaid in a matter of ten.

Although she would roam here weeks on ends,
No one ever knew from where, she went?

Perhaps, she lived in a place beyond our land,
and left for it only when we were sleeping in our dens.

We could poke,
but she never spoke,
leaving us alone in her myterious code.

Then one day, she caught me by surprise,
on a quiet street where people seldom come by.

Standing in front of me and staring with wide eyes.
Her lips crinkled to form an " I ..."

Just as she was about to say ...
A car honk boomed and took my attention away.

I turned back around,
but she was gone, i found.
However there on the ground,
was the doll she always held.

I picked it up out of the curiosity I had,
And realised a tag hanging around its neck.

It read, " return to 14 Guilmard way " ,
And I realised that was my address that was displayed !

P.S I'll understand if you don't get it.haha

cunning, blood-thirsty #$%@* and their nerves. ugh.

2009-02-20T08:37:00.000+08:00

My limbs are now throbbing in redness.
I've got at least 12 bites.
And they have a vengence.

I can feel the blood pulsating under the patches of redness on my skin.
Taking it's own sweet time to pulsate, mind you.
And making me itch like no tommorrow.

I tell you those lousy, good for nothing, whimsy-thing-of-an-insect
have forgot their standing.

Mosquitoes never bite me. NEVER!

They'd bite anyone else in my family except me.

But they seem to have forgot that.
Ingrats.

Well I hope they die from my blood,
and this will be a warning to all their fellow girlfriends.

ugh.

I never thought that at sea i'll find a friend.

2009-02-18T01:40:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEAN!

(click on the pic and save it, gives a better view)

I'll never forget Kayaking at OBS=)
Thank you once again for being such an awesome Kayak Partner.
I would've died of nausea or smt if it weren't for you paddling.
I really found a great friend in you=)
Have a Blessed Birthday.

worth?

2009-02-03T16:40:00.000+08:00

Four Years of things I would've never believed, yet did, because i trusted you.
Three Years of a spectacle I was in, because you forced me to.
Two Years of convincing myself I'd loved you too.
And just this One Year, when I'd hope our friendship will pull through,
I realised I don't even know where your heading to.

Save for reading a network of trivility, I wouldn't have knew.

Worth the dissapointment?

I serve a faithful God.

2009-01-12T23:54:00.000+08:00

Through It All (Acoustic), - Hillsong


You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons

Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness

And I look to You
And I wait on You

I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your handAnd lead me in
Your righteousness

And I look to You
And I wait on You

I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go

I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of LoveFor Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all

Everlasting Father, I love You
Ever living Savior, I love You

Everlasting Father, I love You
Ever living Savior, I love You

I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all

r46r59;)

deep within christmas.

2008-12-30T21:33:00.000+08:00

firstly,
MERRY CHRISTMAS guys =)

I'm sorry I'm a coupla days late,
I spent my Christmas with the Orang Aslis'.

Truth is,
I'm awfully glad i spent my Christmas there.
This might be the wrong idea but I'm glad i spent Christmas there
because i didn't have to spend it with my family, for once.
It's a nice change, ya know.

Also, For once, I learned something from Christmas,
as i spent it with the Orang Aslis'.

They celebrate Christmas not for the gifts nor because it's
just a festival. (not that gifts are bad ;) )
But they do it simply because they love the God they worship.
The carols they sing come from their hearts.
And unless your heart's frozen solid, you'd feel
their praise just beaming out of them.
It's Christmas at it's very humble-iest.

I love it.

This Christmas is one that i wanna remember,
in the many more Christmas-es to come.

P.S Thanks SKG also, for such awesme company during chirstmas =)

again.

2008-12-18T00:33:00.000+08:00

sometimes you just don't wana care ya know?

you try not to and wish it'll settle itself.
but you're conscious of it taking it's tow.

I want to learn from it.
But it's getting tiring.

Stealth Mode.

2008-11-30T02:34:00.000+08:00

A tribute to Mandy and I. =)
I guess CVSS had it's purposes.

Hired!

2008-11-25T23:45:00.000+08:00

Well well it's been a long time since.

I'll be back in the next post with prom pics,
cos i've been considerably busy/lazy/sleepy/lacking of acoupla pictures/ or all
=)

so i'm here,
only to write stuff simply because it takes much lesser
effort than uploading pictures=D

right.
so anyhoo, i've been workin for my parents
heh heh.
and who says money is hard to earn=P
i'm gona be RICH *kaching* $)

skateboards,guitars&iPods here i come.

P.S. vampires are incredibly alluring
P.P.S oh Louis and Armand be mine~

I've got my paira' wingssssss.

2008-11-04T23:42:00.000+08:00

Pebbles for rice
and rocks for meat,
but this last meal couldn't have tasted any better.

The surrounding fell silent
as all but the sound of the metal bars
meeting with the baton resonated down the corridor.

Cling, Clang
The jingle of keys hugged the echo
Cling, Clang
They were fast approaching
Cling, Clang
4 years have passed for this very moment

With the last spoon of rice scrapping to the back of my throat,
I spun the cutlery around to carve in the last marking on the wall.
Amongst the countless others that reflected an eternity
in this cell, this mark was the most pleasurable.
Because this mark was the one of

Freedom.

i know i want to.

2008-11-02T21:45:00.000+08:00

In sixteen hours and thirty-five minutes i'll be freee
free i tell ya~
free as the wind in your hair
free as a coconut falling from a tree
free as a prison escapee
free as your brother shorts flipping in the wind on a flag pole
freeeeeeee~

free to find your sock and live in it
free to sit on the tea table the entire afternoon
free to recreate van gogh outta paper mache
free to hang your brothers shorts on the flag pole
freeeeeee~
woohoooo~ i can't wait!

(okai la i mean after sixteen hours and thirty-five minutes i still have a coupla mcqs and clb papers
BUT i mean everyone knows mcqs and clb is ONLY mcqs and clb pfft.)

freeeeeeeeeeeeeeee =)

entropy.

2008-10-03T18:54:00.000+08:00

en·tro·py
/ˈɛntrəpi/ [en-truh-pee]
–noun
1.Thermodynamics. a.
(on a macroscopic scale) a function of thermodynamic variables, as temperature, pressure, or composition, that is a measure of the energy that is not available for work during a thermodynamic process. A closed system evolves toward a state of maximum entropy.
b.(in statistical mechanics) a measure of the randomness of the microscopic constituents of a thermodynamic system. Symbol: S
2.(in data transmission and information theory) a measure of the loss of information in a transmitted signal or message.
3.(in cosmology) a hypothetical tendency for the universe to attain a state of maximum homogeneity in which all matter is at a uniform temperature (heat death).
4.a doctrine of inevitable social decline and degeneration.

It's definition 4. that i wish to concentrate on.
The rest above it, you can ignore.
It's some crap that involves physics.__.

do you not find that as each generation passes
it shows a trend of dwindling character and behaviour?

I mean it hadn't quite matter as much till now
where it has hit pretty close to home.

CVSS drama club for example.
well, I've never witnessed such triviality and pettiness
amongst the club before.
I mean the unity and fun that use to grace the drama club
in my year is no longer there.

Also, disciplinary issues in my year
has never flourished as much as it has now in the lower secondary
Things I've heard of them doing is well,
shocking and to some extend disgusting, really.

And i guess i have to admit to it myself that
I am much lazier and much more complacent then
those sitting their O's in the past years.

I don't stand alone unfortunately,
this complacency is dwelling amongst our entire cohort.
Am i not right?

With this said,
I've come to notice that such degenerating behaviours
are caused by the era we live in.

Generally most things come to us with such ease,
so much so that we take them for granted
and
we are so accustomed to the convenience
that when there's something we have to work hard to get,
we don't.

Instead we submit to temptation or/and procrastination.
For one
simple
reason;
it's easier.

well i don't really know what else to say except that
i guess getting slapped about a coupla times
and experiencing a coupla hardtimes isn't that bad.
Makes you learn and all.

and

I Shall not surrender myself to entropy.
We were meant to live for so much more.

p.s. Whoa. talk about old and reflective...

I've been thinking,

2008-09-28T20:27:00.000+08:00

How today will become yesterday, tommorrow.
and
How today was Yesterday's tommorrow.
and
How the next Monday will never be this Monday.
ever again.
How once your 17 your never 16.
ever again.

oh gosh. it's only 22 or so more days to O's.

14th september.

2008-09-19T23:03:00.000+08:00

Considering the fact that it was my birthday
it started off really really bad.

But
I took comfort in the things i recieved.
Really from the bottom of my heart thank you,

SK2
for the "guitar card"

like i was really shocked when sam took it out.
i love it.
and thank you guys so much for just really being there
and makin an effort to pray and stuff.=)
just to let ya'll know the prayers are being answered
slowly.=)

Mandy, Shin, Liv, Qiming, Zhen and Shijun.

Like thanks abunch.
Thanks for knowing what i needed/wanted.
Thanks for making going to school more managable.
Thanks for existing.
yea i noe it sounds cheesy/cliche and all but well
im really puttin all my sincerity into sayin this.

I don't think its so much of what i got that made me happy.
It's like you guys just care enough to like
know what i liked/wanted/needed and all.
I'm absolutely touched.

And even if you don't realise it..
you guys- SK2, the girls,Shi Jun, Qiming and Zhen-
have made my birthday this year a tad bit more special
then the past few.

My sixteenth birthday did end sweet afterall.=)
thank you.

oh and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEREMY!
(sorry i took so long to wish you)

I blame Amath.

2008-09-10T21:42:00.000+08:00

A day in the blank.

maybe it's in the trees.

2008-09-03T15:20:00.000+08:00

In periphery, the passing trees mass into outlines and moulds of colour,
as her eyes were drawn and fixed upon the ground she walked.
"why.",
her brows slightly knitting as she breathed the word.
"what am i to do?",
she cried softly under the noise in her head.

Her eyes were still fixated on the ground as if it had all the answers.

;answers to why
;anwers to how
;answers to unweave the complexity of the it all

;answers - she knew would never surface

Receding into that fact,
she let out all but a sigh and
switched her gaze to the trees.

words-shmords

2008-08-19T14:45:00.000+08:00

Oral wasn't as nerve-wrecking as i expected.
In fact i considered myself preeetty calm
when we were ushered into the hall.
I sat at the back of the hall in utmost composure i must say,
well and it felt gooood~
really thank God.

Serendipitously, the topic was one of which i anticipated - education ,
so i guess i was quite well prepared for it.
woohoo~

so anyhoo the beginning of my oral assessment was kinda ironic.

There we were minutes before the oral,
sitting at the back of the hall, slogging to perfect the "th-" sound
in our words instead of making it sound like "d-"

and the teacher, who sat before me and who was about to assess me
on my ENGLISH oral skills..
started with the sentence,
"whad do you dink dis woman is tinking"
T____T
horrible.

so i stared at him for a second or so,
wondering-
is he going to penalise me for pronouncing my "th-" correctly~...?

tsktsk. really.

The Joker&the Dark Knight.

2008-08-08T22:40:00.000+08:00

yes, i did catch the Dark Knight.

It was brilliant, considering the fact that the
plot was based on
a comic strip.

Mostly owed to Heath Ledger's head on depiction of the joker,
The entire movie was reeeeal cool~
Sadly he's realistic phsycho-ness overshadowed whatever Batman was doing.

not that Christian Bale was bad,
it's just that he's character wasn't as amusing as the joker's.
(plus this maksed crusader looked kinda chunky in the suit)

Anyhoo, the suspense before the joker makes a kill
really makes your heart skip a beat .
I don't remember any of the past Batman villians being able to do that.

Moreover, the plot was not bad-reeally,
although it stil had a few of those cliche-ish, cheesy, good-truimph-over-evil,
crap.
But hey what's a comic-adapted movie without its cheesy taglines right..?

Despite all this,
The Dark Knigt deserves credit for a worthy film.
I'd say it's th best among all the past batman movies.

Want to know how i got these scars... *sinister laughter*

=D tatas.

blanc.

2008-08-04T20:20:00.000+08:00

Upon a blank canvas,
a grey mass began to spread.

Swirling and curling into a transluscent shell,
the almost tangible mist took a dimension.

As it formed inches before my eyes,
the stark temptation of beholding it convulsed me.

Stretching my hand out,
I wrapped my palm around the shaping smoke.

In the split moment,
when my fingers were about to wholly enclose it,

the bouffant cloud pounded inwards,
then escaped in rivulets of tenuous silver linings
seeping through the narrow gaps between my fingers.

As the last breath of smoke faded into oblivion,
all that was left was the canvas.

white.
cold and
blank.
______________________________________________________________

ever felt like that before?
when your looming so close to an idea
and when your just about to get a hold of it,
it eludes you.

it's utterly frustrating.
.______.

a little too late for racial harmony.

2008-07-28T21:59:00.000+08:00

sorry...I had to catch up with my work.
but here's alil something to make up for it.
these are afew of my favourites.

HAPPY RACIAL HARMONY~

P.S i really don't want my life to be held hostage by one mandatory exam.=(

ties.

2008-06-22T19:38:00.000+08:00

it's about time my blog had some lighter content, so here i am with some pics i took during my cousin, pamela's wedding.=D

spastic

another spastic one.

4's a crowd.

speak no evil. hear no evil. see no evil. heh

my grandma and I

my grandparents, my bro and I

"hey look its menu!!"

my uncles in the bckground, they were drunk.

bride and groom.

my dear sis

valdon, my nephew

..talk about small eyes.haha like cousin like cousin

my family.

mom and the bride

dad and the bride

flower girl

paige boy

flower girl and paige boy.

at that moment.

2008-06-02T23:55:00.000+08:00

their words sent neurons relaying revulsion through my system
their sentences gnawed at the heart tissues to surface anger i never knew existed.

how can i honour someone i've lost respect for.
it's getting tough.really tough.
Lord, help me.

loom.

2008-05-04T01:28:00.000+08:00

I can already predict i'm gona flunk Eng.
and for the first time in my life i'm quite confident of passing Chinese.
okai um CLB la at least, its still chinese.

but wadeva la.

during cell today zhen mentioned a verse,

Matt 6:33-34
" But seek first his kingdom and righteousness,
and all things will be given to you as well.
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow,
for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day
has enough trouble of its own. "

it's tough but i'm tryin,
and yea..i do believe God is faithful.

vast.

2008-04-18T00:10:00.000+08:00

You know when your going about your daily routines
like on a bus ride home or something
then you suddenly decide to look out the window
and you spot a random person
like a foreign construction worker, a pregnant woman or a domestic helper
or what have you..

and it triggers a series of thoughts of what kind of a situation they're in.
like when you see a bangladash worker sitting at the back of the lorry holding a blank expression..
what do you think he's thinkin of..
his family?
when will he be back home?
what the meaning of life is?
was his boss going to pay him fairly?

then your questions will weave its way into the persons background..
poor?
once-rich?
slept on the streets in his homeland?
was his mom thinking of him too?

then another random person passes the path of your gaze
catches your attention
and the whole thought process repeats itself.

Subsequently, leading you to wonder if theres another person half way round the world sound asleep or thinking of the exact same thing at this moment

I've had such thoughts several times over my course of life, and everytime i have them i wince at the fact that our world has such a homongous population.
thousands, millions, billions

I feel quite overwhlemed by it.
However ,there are still people that are living in thier own little world; according to their own childish rules. They don't see the vast-ness of the world.

haha well it was just something I thought of again.
I had to blog something...

what they've brought.

2008-04-06T23:26:00.000+08:00

I know im pretty late in saying this but well i wanted to find a good picture to come along with what i had to say. (i picked it up from patricia's blog)

Weeks before the performance, I been trying to pushaway the recurring thought of leaving you dramalites.
Until that afternoon itself before the performance, where it was only a few hours till I wasn't officially part of you guys anymore. As i sit at the back of the artroom watching you guys rave away, run around or just fiddle with something, i just felt so crappy/ depressed/ heart-wrenched/ nervous/ and what have you. I was trying reeal hard to block it out.

After the performance, to tell you the truth i couldn't cry cos i felt numb. well just numb. no explaination.
Right up till the part where Ms Ng gave us our debrief. Well that was when it hit me hard. This sounds sooo corny but I realised at that point how attached i was to ya'll. Yea then the tears came natuarally.

I'll miss you guys and just being part of the dramalites.
Patricia, Denzel and the rest of the Ex-co. we'r entrusting this entire club to ya'll. And well i believe ya'll got what it takes to lead it. Try not to mess it up aite?
It'll only function properly if ya'll work as one.
another corny statement but its true.=)
We'll still be here to help anyhoo. All you have to do is ask. =)

And the Sec 1s and 2s, go easy on your new leaders alright.
They are doing their best. If you have issues let the leaders know and suggest solutions don't complain. I love you guys, from the bottom of my heart.

To the seniors, All the best. It's been awesome and undescribable working with ya'll. My sincerity comes with our memories together.

To Zhen,
There isnt much use for this message but well just thot i'd tell you its been fun or entertaining workin with you.

To Shijun,
Your like one of the most stubborn ass-es i'v ever met. and you've got the most ancient,traditional and unbelievable principals ever. But hey, its a love-hate thing right? =P I somehow enjoyed workin with you.

Lastly To Mandy,
Your annoying, but I love you too woman. well if it wasn't for you i wouldn't be in drama . We've gone through quite abit together, and many more to come i believe. Yea...And your not allowed to blackmail me with all these cheesy sounding things im sayin to you cos, i mean it with all my heart.=)

shamble.

2008-03-25T23:23:00.000+08:00

Paper, White as snow
Pen, black as sin

As it met dark ink sank deep into it's miniscule ridges

The first line for confusion
The second curve for doubt
The third stroke for helplessness

And the rest driven by naked turmoil.

I'd call it a disarray.

It's one of those days.

2008-03-14T22:31:00.000+08:00

I'm having one of those days where my worries meet no bounds
One of those days where it gets so heavy that it just flats out
Those days where I wanna bury myself in a muse
Days where I know I can't
Where only God understands

I wouldn't like to buy a vowel please.

2008-03-02T21:59:00.000+08:00

My verification slip read: $370

How much did yours read?

I've calculated the cost
and have came to a conclusion,

Not Worth.
I got cheated of my money.

Im payin 370
for an infamous vowel coupled with a social-life exterminator

okai okai i promise the next post will not be about O's

hitandrun.

2008-02-08T19:45:00.000+08:00

the school's way of CNY celebration is horrible
if purposefully making bad choices count as festive
then,
yes it was a good celebration.
okai basically the winner of the competition
wasn't the best.
ugrh.why do i bother being irritated.
the school dwells in a humongous well of overrated-ness.
kill me.

at least pepperlunch with the girls were good.
Shin and I made our way to Suntec w/o a single call for direction
OH yeah~ kuku power!

okai ang-bao harvest was alright.
the usual. you visit a house and...

Naomi: HI, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR
Relative: HI HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
Relative: OH Naomi! wow you'v grown taller/ put on weight/ lost weight/
lesser pimples/ look nicer/ * insert template here*
Naomi: haha um okai *gives a sweet lil smile*
-___-

you go to another house and it repeats again.
maybe in a different dialect this time..

don't deny it.
I know you feel the same. =P

okai la its not that bad at least there good food.=)

(my aunt Lynda, Sonia, Tania, Jun, Me)
I don't usually twist
but hey it was CNY and there was an orange peel in my mouth so heh.
my aunt made me do it..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!
screw O levels! =D