deep within christmas.

firstly,
MERRY CHRISTMAS guys =)

I'm sorry I'm a coupla days late,
I spent my Christmas with the Orang Aslis'.

Truth is,
I'm awfully glad i spent my Christmas there.
This might be the wrong idea but I'm glad i spent Christmas there
because i didn't have to spend it with my family, for once.
It's a nice change, ya know.

Also, For once, I learned something from Christmas,
as i spent it with the Orang Aslis'.

They celebrate Christmas not for the gifts nor because it's
just a festival. (not that gifts are bad ;) )
But they do it simply because they love the God they worship.
The carols they sing come from their hearts.
And unless your heart's frozen solid, you'd feel
their praise just beaming out of them.
It's Christmas at it's very humble-iest.

I love it.

This Christmas is one that i wanna remember,
in the many more Christmas-es to come.

P.S Thanks SKG also, for such awesme company during chirstmas =)

again.

sometimes you just don't wana care ya know?

you try not to and wish it'll settle itself.
but you're conscious of it taking it's tow.

I want to learn from it.
But it's getting tiring.

Stealth Mode.

A tribute to Mandy and I. =)
I guess CVSS had it's purposes.

Hired!

Well well it's been a long time since.

I'll be back in the next post with prom pics,
cos i've been considerably busy/lazy/sleepy/lacking of acoupla pictures/ or all
=)

so i'm here,
only to write stuff simply because it takes much lesser
effort than uploading pictures=D

right.
so anyhoo, i've been workin for my parents
heh heh.
and who says money is hard to earn=P
i'm gona be RICH *kaching* $)

skateboards,guitars&iPods here i come.

P.S. vampires are incredibly alluring
P.P.S oh Louis and Armand be mine~

I've got my paira' wingssssss.

Pebbles for rice
and rocks for meat,
but this last meal couldn't have tasted any better.

The surrounding fell silent
as all but the sound of the metal bars
meeting with the baton resonated down the corridor.

Cling, Clang
The jingle of keys hugged the echo
Cling, Clang
They were fast approaching
Cling, Clang
4 years have passed for this very moment

With the last spoon of rice scrapping to the back of my throat,
I spun the cutlery around to carve in the last marking on the wall.
Amongst the countless others that reflected an eternity
in this cell, this mark was the most pleasurable.
Because this mark was the one of

Freedom.

i know i want to.

In sixteen hours and thirty-five minutes i'll be freee
free i tell ya~
free as the wind in your hair
free as a coconut falling from a tree
free as a prison escapee
free as your brother shorts flipping in the wind on a flag pole
freeeeeeee~

free to find your sock and live in it
free to sit on the tea table the entire afternoon
free to recreate van gogh outta paper mache
free to hang your brothers shorts on the flag pole
freeeeeee~
woohoooo~ i can't wait!


(okai la i mean after sixteen hours and thirty-five minutes i still have a coupla mcqs and clb papers
BUT i mean everyone knows mcqs and clb is ONLY mcqs and clb pfft.)

freeeeeeeeeeeeeeee =)

entropy.

en·tro·py
/ˈɛntrəpi/ [en-truh-pee]
–noun
1.Thermodynamics. a.
(on a macroscopic scale) a function of thermodynamic variables, as temperature, pressure, or composition, that is a measure of the energy that is not available for work during a thermodynamic process. A closed system evolves toward a state of maximum entropy.
b.(in statistical mechanics) a measure of the randomness of the microscopic constituents of a thermodynamic system. Symbol: S
2.(in data transmission and information theory) a measure of the loss of information in a transmitted signal or message.
3.(in cosmology) a hypothetical tendency for the universe to attain a state of maximum homogeneity in which all matter is at a uniform temperature (heat death).
4.a doctrine of inevitable social decline and degeneration.

It's definition 4. that i wish to concentrate on.
The rest above it, you can ignore.
It's some crap that involves physics.__.

do you not find that as each generation passes
it shows a trend of dwindling character and behaviour?

I mean it hadn't quite matter as much till now
where it has hit pretty close to home.

CVSS drama club for example.
well, I've never witnessed such triviality and pettiness
amongst the club before.
I mean the unity and fun that use to grace the drama club
in my year is no longer there.

Also, disciplinary issues in my year
has never flourished as much as it has now in the lower secondary
Things I've heard of them doing is well,
shocking and to some extend disgusting, really.

And i guess i have to admit to it myself that
I am much lazier and much more complacent then
those sitting their O's in the past years.

I don't stand alone unfortunately,
this complacency is dwelling amongst our entire cohort.
Am i not right?

With this said,
I've come to notice that such degenerating behaviours
are caused by the era we live in.

Generally most things come to us with such ease,
so much so that we take them for granted
and
we are so accustomed to the convenience
that when there's something we have to work hard to get,
we don't.

Instead we submit to temptation or/and procrastination.
For one
simple
reason;
it's easier.

well i don't really know what else to say except that
i guess getting slapped about a coupla times
and experiencing a coupla hardtimes isn't that bad.
Makes you learn and all.

and

I Shall not surrender myself to entropy.
We were meant to live for so much more.

p.s. Whoa. talk about old and reflective...

I've been thinking,

How today will become yesterday, tommorrow.
and
How today was Yesterday's tommorrow.
and
How the next Monday will never be this Monday.
ever again.
How once your 17 your never 16.
ever again.


oh gosh. it's only 22 or so more days to O's.

14th september.

Considering the fact that it was my birthday
it started off really really bad.


But
I took comfort in the things i recieved.
Really from the bottom of my heart thank you,

SK2
for the "guitar card"

like i was really shocked when sam took it out.
i love it.
and thank you guys so much for just really being there
and makin an effort to pray and stuff.=)
just to let ya'll know the prayers are being answered
slowly.=)


Mandy, Shin, Liv, Qiming, Zhen and Shijun.



Like thanks abunch.
Thanks for knowing what i needed/wanted.
Thanks for making going to school more managable.
Thanks for existing.
yea i noe it sounds cheesy/cliche and all but well
im really puttin all my sincerity into sayin this.


I don't think its so much of what i got that made me happy.
It's like you guys just care enough to like
know what i liked/wanted/needed and all.
I'm absolutely touched.

And even if you don't realise it..
you guys- SK2, the girls,Shi Jun, Qiming and Zhen-
have made my birthday this year a tad bit more special
then the past few.

My sixteenth birthday did end sweet afterall.=)
thank you.

oh and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEREMY!
(sorry i took so long to wish you)

I blame Amath.

A day in the blank.

maybe it's in the trees.

In periphery, the passing trees mass into outlines and moulds of colour,
as her eyes were drawn and fixed upon the ground she walked.
"why.",
her brows slightly knitting as she breathed the word.
"what am i to do?",
she cried softly under the noise in her head.

Her eyes were still fixated on the ground as if it had all the answers.

;answers to why
;anwers to how
;answers to unweave the complexity of the it all

;answers - she knew would never surface

Receding into that fact,
she let out all but a sigh and
switched her gaze to the trees.

words-shmords

Oral wasn't as nerve-wrecking as i expected.
In fact i considered myself preeetty calm
when we were ushered into the hall.
I sat at the back of the hall in utmost composure i must say,
well and it felt gooood~
really thank God.

Serendipitously, the topic was one of which i anticipated - education ,
so i guess i was quite well prepared for it.
woohoo~

so anyhoo the beginning of my oral assessment was kinda ironic.

There we were minutes before the oral,
sitting at the back of the hall, slogging to perfect the "th-" sound
in our words instead of making it sound like "d-"

and the teacher, who sat before me and who was about to assess me
on my ENGLISH oral skills..
started with the sentence,
"whad do you dink dis woman is tinking"
T____T
horrible.

so i stared at him for a second or so,
wondering-
is he going to penalise me for pronouncing my "th-" correctly~...?

tsktsk. really.

The Joker&the Dark Knight.

yes, i did catch the Dark Knight.

It was brilliant, considering the fact that the
plot was based on
a comic strip.

Mostly owed to Heath Ledger's head on depiction of the joker,
The entire movie was reeeeal cool~
Sadly he's realistic phsycho-ness overshadowed whatever Batman was doing.

not that Christian Bale was bad,
it's just that he's character wasn't as amusing as the joker's.
(plus this maksed crusader looked kinda chunky in the suit)

Anyhoo, the suspense before the joker makes a kill
really makes your heart skip a beat .
I don't remember any of the past Batman villians being able to do that.

Moreover, the plot was not bad-reeally,
although it stil had a few of those cliche-ish, cheesy, good-truimph-over-evil,
crap.
But hey what's a comic-adapted movie without its cheesy taglines right..?

Despite all this,
The Dark Knigt deserves credit for a worthy film.
I'd say it's th best among all the past batman movies.



Want to know how i got these scars... *sinister laughter*

=D tatas.

blanc.

Upon a blank canvas,
a grey mass began to spread.

Swirling and curling into a transluscent shell,
the almost tangible mist took a dimension.

As it formed inches before my eyes,
the stark temptation of beholding it convulsed me.

Stretching my hand out,
I wrapped my palm around the shaping smoke.

In the split moment,
when my fingers were about to wholly enclose it,

the bouffant cloud pounded inwards,
then escaped in rivulets of tenuous silver linings
seeping through the narrow gaps between my fingers.

As the last breath of smoke faded into oblivion,
all that was left was the canvas.

white.
cold and
blank.
______________________________________________________________


ever felt like that before?
when your looming so close to an idea
and when your just about to get a hold of it,
it eludes you.

it's utterly frustrating.
.______.

a little too late for racial harmony.

sorry...I had to catch up with my work.
but here's alil something to make up for it.
these are afew of my favourites.












HAPPY RACIAL HARMONY~

P.S i really don't want my life to be held hostage by one mandatory exam.=(

ties.

it's about time my blog had some lighter content, so here i am with some pics i took during my cousin, pamela's wedding.=D




spastic

another spastic one.



4's a crowd.

speak no evil. hear no evil. see no evil. heh

my grandma and I

my grandparents, my bro and I

"hey look its menu!!"

my uncles in the bckground, they were drunk.

bride and groom.

my dear sis

valdon, my nephew





..talk about small eyes.haha like cousin like cousin







my family.



mom and the bride

dad and the bride

flower girl

paige boy

flower girl and paige boy.

at that moment.

their words sent neurons relaying revulsion through my system
their sentences gnawed at the heart tissues to surface anger i never knew existed.

how can i honour someone i've lost respect for.
it's getting tough.really tough.
Lord, help me.

loom.

I can already predict i'm gona flunk Eng.
and for the first time in my life i'm quite confident of passing Chinese.
okai um CLB la at least, its still chinese.

but wadeva la.

during cell today zhen mentioned a verse,

Matt 6:33-34
" But seek first his kingdom and righteousness,
and all things will be given to you as well.
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow,
for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day
has enough trouble of its own. "

it's tough but i'm tryin,
and yea..i do believe God is faithful.

vast.

You know when your going about your daily routines
like on a bus ride home or something
then you suddenly decide to look out the window
and you spot a random person
like a foreign construction worker, a pregnant woman or a domestic helper
or what have you..

and it triggers a series of thoughts of what kind of a situation they're in.
like when you see a bangladash worker sitting at the back of the lorry holding a blank expression..
what do you think he's thinkin of..
his family?
when will he be back home?
what the meaning of life is?
was his boss going to pay him fairly?

then your questions will weave its way into the persons background..
poor?
once-rich?
slept on the streets in his homeland?
was his mom thinking of him too?

then another random person passes the path of your gaze
catches your attention
and the whole thought process repeats itself.

Subsequently, leading you to wonder if theres another person half way round the world sound asleep or thinking of the exact same thing at this moment


I've had such thoughts several times over my course of life, and everytime i have them i wince at the fact that our world has such a homongous population.
thousands, millions, billions


I feel quite overwhlemed by it.
However ,there are still people that are living in thier own little world; according to their own childish rules. They don't see the vast-ness of the world.


haha well it was just something I thought of again.
I had to blog something...

what they've brought.

I know im pretty late in saying this but well i wanted to find a good picture to come along with what i had to say. (i picked it up from patricia's blog)



Weeks before the performance, I been trying to pushaway the recurring thought of leaving you dramalites.
Until that afternoon itself before the performance, where it was only a few hours till I wasn't officially part of you guys anymore. As i sit at the back of the artroom watching you guys rave away, run around or just fiddle with something, i just felt so crappy/ depressed/ heart-wrenched/ nervous/ and what have you. I was trying reeal hard to block it out.

After the performance, to tell you the truth i couldn't cry cos i felt numb. well just numb. no explaination.
Right up till the part where Ms Ng gave us our debrief. Well that was when it hit me hard. This sounds sooo corny but I realised at that point how attached i was to ya'll. Yea then the tears came natuarally.

I'll miss you guys and just being part of the dramalites.
Patricia, Denzel and the rest of the Ex-co. we'r entrusting this entire club to ya'll. And well i believe ya'll got what it takes to lead it. Try not to mess it up aite?
It'll only function properly if ya'll work as one.
another corny statement but its true.=)
We'll still be here to help anyhoo. All you have to do is ask. =)

And the Sec 1s and 2s, go easy on your new leaders alright.
They are doing their best. If you have issues let the leaders know and suggest solutions don't complain. I love you guys, from the bottom of my heart.

To the seniors, All the best. It's been awesome and undescribable working with ya'll. My sincerity comes with our memories together.

To Zhen,
There isnt much use for this message but well just thot i'd tell you its been fun or entertaining workin with you.

To Shijun,
Your like one of the most stubborn ass-es i'v ever met. and you've got the most ancient,traditional and unbelievable principals ever. But hey, its a love-hate thing right? =P I somehow enjoyed workin with you.

Lastly To Mandy,
Your annoying, but I love you too woman. well if it wasn't for you i wouldn't be in drama . We've gone through quite abit together, and many more to come i believe. Yea...And your not allowed to blackmail me with all these cheesy sounding things im sayin to you cos, i mean it with all my heart.=)

shamble.

Paper, White as snow
Pen, black as sin

As it met dark ink sank deep into it's miniscule ridges

The first line for confusion
The second curve for doubt
The third stroke for helplessness

And the rest driven by naked turmoil.

I'd call it a disarray.

It's one of those days.

I'm having one of those days where my worries meet no bounds
One of those days where it gets so heavy that it just flats out
Those days where I wanna bury myself in a muse
Days where I know I can't
Where only God understands

I wouldn't like to buy a vowel please.

My verification slip read: $370

How much did yours read?

I've calculated the cost
and have came to a conclusion,

Not Worth.
I got cheated of my money.

Im payin 370
for an infamous vowel coupled with a social-life exterminator



okai okai i promise the next post will not be about O's

hitandrun.

the school's way of CNY celebration is horrible
if purposefully making bad choices count as festive
then,
yes it was a good celebration.
okai basically the winner of the competition
wasn't the best.
ugrh.why do i bother being irritated.
the school dwells in a humongous well of overrated-ness.
kill me.

at least pepperlunch with the girls were good.
Shin and I made our way to Suntec w/o a single call for direction
OH yeah~ kuku power!


okai ang-bao harvest was alright.
the usual. you visit a house and...

Naomi: HI, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR
Relative: HI HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
Relative: OH Naomi! wow you'v grown taller/ put on weight/ lost weight/
lesser pimples/ look nicer/ * insert template here*
Naomi: haha um okai *gives a sweet lil smile*
-___-

you go to another house and it repeats again.
maybe in a different dialect this time..

don't deny it.
I know you feel the same. =P

okai la its not that bad at least there good food.=)


(my aunt Lynda, Sonia, Tania, Jun, Me)
I don't usually twist
but hey it was CNY and there was an orange peel in my mouth so heh.
my aunt made me do it..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!
screw O levels! =D

better than nothing.

What Naomi Liew Means

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

*shrugs* right...like i said, better than nothing.

okai i'v got a sudden freak urge to take pretty photos and upload them.
(don't question why i said pretty.. -__-)
...
but well ALL i've got is an amazingly sucky camera phone.*shrugs*
oh well.

oxygensupply.

I Shan't drone on about how school is drawing
chunks of life outta me,
cause you're probably going through the same.

and it wouldn't help if i continued to whine about it.

When the going gets tough,
when you feel like giving up
seek refuge in God.

sounds really cliche. i know.
but it's what i'v learnt.
and God is faithful.

Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the thoughts that I think towards you,
says the Lord,
thoughts of peace and not of evil,
to give you a future and hope"

Trust in the Lord.
He will see you through.



well that's all.
just alil smt i felt like saying.
Tata.

deprieved.

What did i expect? a sail thru?..ughh

English has never been so tedious.
Physics has never been such a burden.
Monday has never been so filled with reluctance.

dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread.
dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread.
dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread.
dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread.
dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread. dread.

go figure.